lynniesassymedancing

yeah man!

2006-12-25T10:01:00.000-08:00

woah!!!!!!!!!! it has been really long since i last blogged. hahaha miss the blogging feel man... haha...

this christmas is really special because i got to dance in the SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM on 24th dec 06!!!!!!! total rock and roll! it was good and all GLORY TO THE LORD OF ALL! jesus is the man... he made the dance beautiful again. every single dance that i have danced before are all made beautiful by the lord and if not for him, i will never dance.

i received many pressents! i have a nike belt, shower gel, t-shirt, 2 awesome books, 2 pairs of earings, 1 golden wallet, 1 beautiful dress, 1 pretty handphone holder and a handmade mirror! yeah yeah!!! :) i have also got 2 tops from sem! hehe... and many hand shakes! not forgetting my JESUS's love and embrace! :) pricless! my god is good! so good!

I'M IN LOVE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WITH MY JESUS!

2006-09-30T01:23:00.000-07:00

whoa man!!!!!! its been a long long time since i last blogged! haha... oh well... i did but not here people. i've got my own multiply site. its
favouredlynn@multiply.com

i choose to use multiply because is so much more user friendly. i have no idea abt html and all that java script and so i find blogspot a bit tough to use. mutiply is so straight forward! if i can use u can use too! haha...

i have been working for sometime now and time has never been an issue to me. i was wrong so wrong to think that. A sudden dropped of mind-set from the head to the heart made me realised how important time is. I seriously want to learn to be discipline in spending my time with the LORD and time to read my books! i've got a dance book from hills, sidney, 5 ppl u meet in heaven and more to come. i miss reading. i've always love reading. the more i hang out with sem and becky they make me wanna read more! haha... reading is awesome. time is seriously precious.

have u any idea what that 5 mins spent with GOD will be??
have u any idea whats that 1 hour of family time will be?
have u any idea whats that 3 hours of vcd do to u??
have u any idea whats that 30s worth of conversation would mean?

that 5 mins with GOD, can cause u to grow in wisdom and stature, can cause u to look more radiant than before. can cause to u to be more refresh than u were 5 mins ago!

1 hour with ur family can make or break ur mood. can brighten or darken ur day! can cause u to grow closer to ur parents and understand them and let them understand u.

3 hours of good vcd can make u think, can make u learn, can increase ur creativity can brighten up ur thoughts, can cause u to wring better compo... haha... a bad 3 hrs will cause u to feel restless, will waste time, will darken ur thoughts and cause u to think of things u don't want to think about.

that 30s worth of converstation can be impactful, can wiser u up can cause new friendship to birth can allow great thoughts to process. bad 30s will leave u screaming at one another can drain the life out of u.

see! these are just examples what time can do! we are living in this time zone... is like the air we breathe! is same! yet the lord lives out of time zone. only he can cause and control my life. i allow u to do it lord. place my path the way u want me to walk. make time for me lord. make time.

2006-08-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

today is a super fun day! *yeah* woke up 7.30am this morning to get ready for a HAPPENING DAY ahead! haha...

met my dearest lydia at her house bus stop and it was raining!!! i was kind of anxious because we are going escape to play! how can it rain??!!! haha... yup so lydia and i prayed and yup! praise jesus soon after it rain stopped and we are all ready to go! lydia my sis and i met darren and esther for breakfast! hahah yup! its been quite some time since i last had my Macdonals BIG BREAKFAST!!! hahaha yummy!

after eating, we met charissa and yeah we are seriously on our way to ESCAPE! hahaha... ok. now we are all at the entrance of escape and we were all so excited! 16.50bucks for singapore escape theme park...hm... is that considered expensive? i am not every sure. oh well praise jesus for a discount! haha only had to pay 14 i think. haha while all of us were buying ticket, this very cheeky cute darren already bought his ticket and went in and started playing 2 rounds of flippers! hahaha...

yup! next we dashed in and started playing FLIPPERS!!!!!!!! whooooooooooo! this game is quite a good kick start to the day! haha we started flying in this UFO and it was fast, high and a little giddy! but was really fun! hahaha... btw flippers was darren esther and my sister's favourite! haha

next we went to the most thrilling game of all called REVOLUTION! aiya... coz rainbow and inverter is not open!!! haha.. manzzzzzzzz ... OH WELLL... revolution is really sth! haha... we all sat in pairs not having any idea how this game really goes but we just went ahead never even attemp to braze myself. hahaha... i sat with my sis and when the seats went up high till abt 10meters high and was slanted and our chairs started rotating like mad! mad! MAD!!!!!!!!! i am 45kg, my sis is abt 40kg? our weight was one of the lightest on board and therefore we were the only 1 rotating like there is no TMR! hahah it was a bit bit scary at first but was really quite thrilling and i LOVE IT! i enjoyed it so much! haha... my sis was so scared! she said" jie! i don't want to play already!!!! help help help!!" hahahah so funny! sitting beside her not knowing what to say... so i just told her to relax is going to be ok ! haha... DUH- ahaha

hm... whats next? oH! is our ever famous pirate ship! haha was fine la.. not very scary. compared to the one i sat in thailand this was nothing! hahaha i'll never forget my dad told me to scream when we were on the pirate ship in thailand! haha my dad is so cute!

i love the wild and wet! u go up up up and then DOWN DOWN DOWN and splash! SPLASH! splash!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA really very funnnnnnnnn!!! i love the whole thrill thing! the rush of the adrenaline the butterflies in the stomach the excitment which got me high and the wind thats blowing right into ur face! LOVE IT!

i ENJOYED driving the GO-KART! hahaha... it seriously feels quite good driving a car on a track! haha the first time i was kind of slow but my 2nd time was really quite good! hahaha.. the sped all the way and that petrol smell makes me feel as if i am on a race! like formula 1 hahahah NAHZ... i'm just joking ! hahaha... it was really fun! i am going to learn how to drive real soon! i'll take by basic first! LYNN! THE UPCOMING FEMALE DRIVER IN THE KOK'S FAMILY! hehehe coz... in my family only the man drives. i want to be the first! i also know... that my dad will be real proud if i know how to drive! hahaha..

LYDIA bought me this hot pink with a heart shape and a ribbon and stuts slippers today! so beautiful and funky and cutie and lovely! hahaha this slipper is from havanias!!! haha... PRAISE JESUS! I AM SO BLESSED! thank u jesus!!!! u made my dad all good!

btw.. some gk here... do u know that we shoot out chemcials into the clouds so that there will not be rain on national day! hehe... sth called hydro don't know what la... but it basically gathers all the water droplets and let them all down in the morning so there will not be any clouds ard the ndp area therefore no rain!!!! amazing right?!!!!!! WELL at least to me it was! hahaha

I LOVE SINGAPORE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! U R 41 NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! LIFE STARTS AT 40! HAHAHA.... I AM A TRUE BLUE SINGAPOREAN WITH THE las, lehs, mehs and mahs! hahaha... oh yes! sales are a big thing to me ! haha i love FOOD! :)

2006-08-07T07:09:00.000-07:00

today is not a very nice day for me. my eyes are so watery tired and heavy which makes me feel really goggy. whatssup man!?? this eye thing really did affect a big part of my day! what adds on to this horrible day was that the MOL system went all cranky! what the heck !???

we are all suppose to do some maths and get 3 stars. once u are done with 9 questions u get ur 3 stars! i got more than 9 correct and i only got 2 stars! btw the questions are not easy ok. did my mol fuming!

the whole day after maths i was just tired, sleepy, goggy, brain dead and frustrated with many things but i still learn to stay calm and smile but deep down in me... i just long to go home.

saw hcl today. hm... hope i look pretty. haha... oh well.... my friend told me i looked drunk! i look so flush ! i have no idea why... these few days my face is just redish! whats happening? am i like hot as in temperature hot? i know myself la... i am not some hot babe or some popular sexy girl... thats why i will never say i am. hahaha... well... i do feel that i am quite pretty in my own ways.. like what sem calls me. i am sassy! not sexy! haha.. sem is sexy! hahaha... i do love myself very much because there is only one me on this whole planet earth! so beautiful ! :)

sigh.... exams are near again and this time round is 5 times tougher then the previous one. JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME LORD!!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE MERCY ON LYNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU JESUS U LOVE ME.

nvm... exams are good they are they to showcase the good grades and to tell u that u did it! haha... lynnn, life is really wonderful. remember to give thanks that u r still alive, still smiling, still love, still dancing, still making a difference and show all u boys out there that women are not sth u mess with! hahaha sorry i know i am such a sexist! haha...

JESUS U LOVE ME!

2006-08-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

is a must to blog abt what happened yesterday! haha... THANK U JESUS! THANK U JESUS! THANK U JESUS! THANK U JESUS! THANK U JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is amazing! bryan, johnny,dora and me took 4hrs on thursday night to do a full 2 mins dance and we performed it yesterday during DARE! the response was amazing! it was as if my dream came true or rather i am one step closer to my dream.

i was amazed at how the lord caused all these to happen supernaturally. dance steps were put into me by the lord. steps were constructed carefully by the lord. song we found was cool clean and approved! all that was done in one night.

the response on sat was overwhelming! to me... the whole day was my spectacular saturday! i really don't know how to explain all thats going through my mind and heart. for, all i know it.... the hands of GOD was upon this whole dance thing and i saw for myself the impact it had on the people. i am speechless until now. still amazed at what he did for me.

thank you lord.

2006-08-03T20:01:00.000-07:00

i don't know how should i call my yesterday. it was a free day for me yet i touch not my books. instead i went church office to meet pastor dora charissa c. e and jer for some fun. haha... pastor chose a new song for us and yup is a new song. only one day to come up with a full dance for a 2 mins song... oh... we don't have a day... we only had a few hours to do it!

amazingly we did it! praise jesus! i couldn't thank him enough in this life time but i'll attemp to do it! hahaha... its been such long time since i last danced and so... it was tough at some point of time but we all still pull through. one thing i know... MY BACK IS ACHING NOW AND SO ARE MY ARMS AND LEGS! HAHAHAHAHA

look how fit i am! i used to run 2.4 in 12-13 mins. now... i run 2.4 in 20 mins! i used to swim 50ms in 35-40s. now... i don't even swim! i used to do 100 crunches, 100 sit ups and 50 guy push ups... now... i do 1 of each and i am deadbeat on the ground. hahaha dancing is good. dancing keeps u in shape fit and healthy! :) hahaa

yesterday when i was trying to get a cab at mackenzie area i felt so fearful. i was flagging for 20mins and not one cab stopped. there were many scary people walking around the area and i was all by myself standing there looking strong but i was so fearful! i was so afraid of many what if....? thank god my cousin came to pick me up and later on dora and johnny waited with me. thanks so much guys! really appreciate it!

i couldn't wake up for this morning hyd tutorial. sammi i am so sorry! i am not going for eg1 lecture too. i am only going for the 2pm class. man............ just a bum! lynn wake up wake up!!!!!!!!! i am going to mug like poise during study week for hyd and eh.

mean while... i'll mug like poise for eg1 and pray like i have it for autocad.

yeah yeah yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! that shall be the plan! *satisfied smile*

i am the diamond that reflects ur light!
i glitter with the sun that shines so bright on me!

EMILY HUISHI I LOVE U! AND JANICE AND HASEENAH TOO!!!!!! LOVE U BABES! :)

2006-08-02T21:12:00.000-07:00

i seriously hope today can be a green day! a green day to me means------- ENERGY! FUN! RELAX! GREAT DANCING!!!!!!!!!! ok.... i don't know why i call that green but green just makes me feel so relax so natural and so full of the hive!

i had a weird dream today! really werid! i dreamt that i went into a bungalow trying to rescue my friend from this evil man and i did but i died after i got sent to the hospital! due to internal bleeding! what the heck!?? i thought i was going to be some hero! oh well... thank god is a dream!

yesterday was quite a tiring day for. met janice and roger in the morning abt 8am to study LS. then had a test quite major. after day had tutorial and lecture and i almost faint because i was so hungry i could cry! haha... then when all that was over i went for lunch at canteen 3. ate chicken noodles and it made me feel even worst! the noodle was so heavy and the taste was horrible! wait... whats taste? they don't even have it! the only nice and yummy thing i had was the ice lemon tea roger bought.

autocad lesson was fun today! hahaha it was relax easy and quite a breeze! praise jesus! sometimes when u just braze urself and take a step of faith and jump into a place full of the unknown.... it can come out quite interesting! hahaha...

had sugar cane drink from bukit timah market! yum! then head down to mackenzie for some dancing.... JESUS U R MY INSPIRATION!

2006-08-01T08:38:00.000-07:00

what a short yet long day....

late for 30 mins for practical and praise jesus! lecturer wasn't angry! hahah he was trying to be corny. oh well... thanks ar for marking my attendance. haha... praise jesus!

practical was tiring! next was eg1. it was alright but i got really sleepy after 45mins! hahaha.... *ring* yeah lessons all ended!

haseenah emily huishi and i rushed to atruim and started on our landsurvey project! yes we completed it! beautiful girlS! i am so gald i got great classmates like these! hehehe

after that had maths extra lesson well... it was alright but i need more! haha then to the library to study our LS for a test tmr! grace grace!

and so my end day is sort of fruitful and really fruitful today

my laptop's disc drive is a bit weird... cannot read cds suddenly. nvm. i'll pray until it recover. if not i'll just go to dell for help. yup!

sweetdreams for me!

2006-07-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

its been quite some time since i blogged. been quite busy with sch! lots of project , lots of work to be done and lots of many other things which i myself am not very clear about. haha

today's lessons were fine. it was our last hydraulics practical and i am so glad! hahaha so fast! one sem is coming to an end just like that. hm... time is really fast. during my 3hours break today, i put it into super good use! hahaha i did my EH project which is an individual work. i am 2/3 done already!! whoohoo!!!! go lynn! hahahaha the 1/3 would be the pictures! put up some pictures and i will be done! yeah yeah!

I going nuts with eg1! hahaha seriously! i am so confuse with complex number and my friend said" duh! is complex! thats y u r confused" hahaha i thot that was such a random joke! hahah

drank chocolate soy today... as i was drinking i was thinking to myself " what am i doing!!???? i don't drink soy drinks! i think the texture is horrible!" hahha what am i doing man.... whatever it is that drink kept me awake. thanks soy!

haseenah told me i could sing! hahaha i am amazed! totally! i mean... SOMEONE THINKS I SING WELLL!!!!!!!!!!!! what a joy to hear! if u don't... i am not bothered too! hahaha.... i only sing for the man i love and to people who appreciates my singing! hahaha as if some big star talking. hahahaha well... joke la!

I am feeling as if my thots are all over the place and i am typing in this random realm of thots. hahaha a bit unusual. hm..............

i love my dad a lot but these days i hardly talk to him. i pray he is doing fine at work and everything is in god's blessed hands and that god will put a supernatural favour and me and my dad so we can communicate easily. like a open conversation. AMEN!

i seriously want to thank god for good friend in poly! they are such blessing to me ! god is so practical! he knows what i need and gives me only the best! thank u god! i give thanks for friends who are good!

i give thank i breathing! i give thanks for this laptop before me and i give thanks for everyone in my family! i give thanks for the allowance i have! i give thanks for the lecturers i have. i give thanks for these legs that walk and the hands that hold and the eyes that see the nose that smelll! and of coz these ears that hear! i give u thanks!

I AM SO GLAD MONDAY IS OVER! WHICH MEANS A NEW DAY IS COMING!!!

new day,new life, new story, new air, new LOVE!

2006-07-24T08:22:00.001-07:00

i've got one of the best weekends in this whole wide world! i am so blessed! yes, i finally know how to cycle! that is super awesome. sunday service was spectacular! i am amazed at how our daily life actions and words would mean so much! it was a mind blowing service ! thank u pastor prince!

sch today was fine. it was quite monotone but yet it has its own share of fun and laughter which i am going to give thanks for! serious man... when u start to give thanks for everyday, i feel so happy so glad and also the perspective of life changed.

i think its high time for me to get down to business already.

these are things to be done:
EH RATS PROJECT
IAC END PROJECT AND PRESENTATION
HYDRACLICS ASSIGNMENT
MATHS TUTORIALS
MATHS ONLINE
PREPARE FOR LAND SURVEY TEST

things to be done tmr:
SCH ENDS AT 12, LUNCH!!!!!
MATHS LESSON WITH KTY
LANDSURVEY PRACTICAL
( EH rats project!!!!!)

YES! i'll trust god to get all my assignment down and up and ready for the exams. i am going to soar once more for my end of sem 1 exams! yes yes yes! i'll go bukit timah hill and dance after my exams in slippers! hahaha

2006-07-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

2006-07-22T10:23:00.000-07:00

this day marked a special happening in my life.

I FINALLY CYCLED ON MY OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA.. bet this is such a no big deal to all u people right? but to me it means quite a bit. i never get to learn how to cycle because my dad was one kind protective after seeing my cousin fell off a hill while learning how to cycle.

nvm the past, the thing is i can now cycle!!!!!!! whoohoo!!!!!!! although my backside a bit pain now and i got this very style cut on my left calf, i'll still cycle! hahahaha is so fun and exciting to finally be able to do what i once can't! the feeling is so awesome! love it.

i won't be able to cycle if not for the acceleration and grace of god. btw, i took less than 30mins to cycle on my own and abt 5 mins to learn the skill of turning and then i cycled 5km after all crash course! :) so yaya right? haha i know! i did it on purpose! hahah

i really wanna thank jong wei heng dora and lydia for helping me and supporting me all the way! thank u so much! so many people involve becoz the bike was very high and i couldn't touch the floor without leaning at least a 55degrees.very high so i can't even mount up. well, thank u guys so much! i can cycle now because then i have all of u guys! i am just very thankful and grateful for all of u! :) i heart all of u! and i mean every single one of u. all who were there!!!!!! heart u!

ate ostrict's meat for dinner!!!! yummy like one kind!!!!!!!!! 60cents per stick! statay form. hahahahahahhahahh what were u thinking?hahhahha and hokkien mee ! and i drank sparking bottle ribbena! yum!

MY LIFE IS FANTASTIC! I hope urs will be the same. btw don't get me wrong, fantastic doesn't mean no challenges, no issues, no trials,no grief....but its just the way i feel and i see my life to be and is right now even in the mist of all these problems. that is y i hope that ur life is also fantastic because i know there is trials but when u see ur life as blessed as great as called as fantastic even in the mist of all these problems, u will rise up and be a greater better stronger person. at the very least i do care.

2006-07-20T09:56:00.000-07:00

what pretty day! hm.... my day started out with no breakfast but then suddenly my grandma pop some pasta out from don't know where so praise jesus!

did my tutorial for hydraulics and yup it was not bad. finally got to understand more abt the chapter and the meaning of all the formulas! haha praise jesus!

class starts at 3pm but i only left house at abt 2.35pm. hahaha i only do this for IS. shijie saw me at bustop so... yup!!!!!!! he gave me a ride to sch! whoohoo! praise jesus!!!!!!!!! thank u shijie!

yes! finally this whole IS is coming to an end which make me so glad. hahaha... serious i hate IS. i feel that this is practically a waste of time. i see not much value in this and is taking up my time when i can better spend it in other ways! think abt it, u come to sch and hear this woman nag nag nag abt the interesting ways of presenting and public speaking when that woman is totally boring!??!!?? i mean... what the heck right? u look at her and u look at ur watch.... u will feel a sense of " YOU ARE WASTING MY TIME WOMAN!" hahaha.... alright, at least that is what i felt everytime i go for IS class. the people there are fun la but not fun enough to make me waste my 2 hours or sometimes 4.

went for bs and it was fantastic! i am going to get the cd next week! hs remind me ok! :)

after bs when to newton.c for supper. food was alright la. 6.5/10? so so la... it ain't fantastic. yeah... hitched a ride home. hahahaha

quite a pretty day huh...?

2006-07-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

its the happiest day of the week so far because my super long day turned out to be a short little day at sch! hahaha...

i never really adore my wednesday because the its long, irritating, boring, draggy and it makes me sick! anyway... i went for morning classes and yes i was 5 mins late! hahaha oh well.. is only 5 mins... hahaha then SUDDENLY... my class rap turned ard and said" autocad lesson cancelled! mr teo's voice is really bad" hahahahahhaahha WHAT A PLEASANT THING TO THE EARS! HAHAHHAA I MEAN THE LESSON CANCELLED PART NOT THAT MY LECTURER IS SICK AND I AM GLAD. NO ALRIGHT.... i'm with great compassion for him and therefore i think to cancel lesson is an excellent desicion. hahahaha

huishi and me couldn't control ourselves, we started screaming and doing high 5s! hahahaha later that we realised the other lecturers were in class... OPPSY ! HAHAHA... whatever man... i am so glad so glad! i know i have to go for make up but oh well... i am glad for the day.

came home and slack! one kind slack. i seriously need to study and i seriously need to complete my IAC project which is a must! go go fight fight gees i hope i do alright! :)

loving life! i was talking to janice abt our chinatown trip and it was so funny! hahaha she is so aunty and funny but i love her! hahahah she is so cute! nvm a thing i love her lots! and i love my emily and huishi lots too! and my A1 student haseenah. hehehe....

2006-07-17T00:01:00.000-07:00

woke up today feeling blessed! aiya... not everyday like that la... but if i want, i know i can! sometimes is just how much we want to be reminded of his blessings.

came to sch and YES!!!!!!! for once i am early! hahaha lessons were fine as usual. during my EH break, emily huishi and i went to have our breakfast! hahaha we shared a prata egg and i ate 2 per-gal-dile. hahhaha yum!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i just decided what to do tmr. i'm going to study in sch for 2hrs or more then we'll head down to chinatown to buy haseena a brooch! hehe set! so exciting lalalalalal so delighting lalalalalal

past few days have been really good for me. somehow... i missed the time with my dad and mom. my dad sees me and he knows not what to say because we haven talk for a long time. alright, today, today after sch i'll head home straight and be a good girl. i'll take time to pack my room and then go and bathe and then eat dinner with my dad and tell him abt my plans for tmr! yes! this shall be it ! hehehe

2006-07-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

what does a rainy morning do?

i opened my eyes at 7.30am thinking i'll get up for sch but when i felt the cold wind against my legs and the sound of raindrops i went back to dreamland. yup! i skipped 1 hour of landsurvey lecture and no regrets! haha... that extra one hour of sleep is seriously more worth while than a 1 hour LS lecture.

whatever it is... class was still good everything was still fine. emily bought this chocolate browine for huishi and me and on top of those browines are disney princesses and i ate BELLE! hehe... during EH lecture, ridzwan sang for the class! his voice is so beautiful!!!!!!! he sang MY LOVE by westlife for the class and woah!!! the whole class had been smitten by ridz's voice. :)
emily, huishi and i are going to support him at the NP IDOL! HEHE... go ridz!!!!!!!!!!! U GOT MY VOTE DUDE!

yes.. today is wednesday and therefore i've got the horrible horrible autocad! nvm... i love autocad i love autocad i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee autocad! hahaha.... go lynn go! haha autocad today was very tedious but i was first 3 who finished that exercise! whoohoo! haha...

everytime before going to autocad i'll have to climb this super steep and high stairs which i call the mountain of stairs. there, i'll always hear whiser, cat calls and all kinds of weird noises coming from above! haha thats none other than the BROWN SHIT (janice calls him that) kairu! hahaha and roger and eugene! hahaha they are all at the top of a building and the 3 of us will be down at ground level! haha.. think about... is quite a nice sight to see!

met coach alice and had a good chat with her! really quality time spent! thank u jesus for a coach like coach alice! thank u jesus!

2006-07-10T03:42:00.000-07:00

didn't go sch today! the feeling of staying home and having lots of time to do what i need to do feels so good. woke at 2pm and the "breakfast" i had wasn't very yummy but it did satisfy my stomach. left the house at ard 3.30pm to toa payoh mac to do my work. haha because mac has got wireless and my house don't ! hahahaha

met this really nice mac's employee and she helped me find a power point and also served me well! 5 stars to her! if i am not wrong and with my lighting fast eyes.. her name is wee peng! hahaha JESUS U BLESS WEE PENG AND POUR DOWN UR FAVOUR ON HER! amen!

yes i did complete my work and it feels great indeed! haha... i must blog abt this.

this CHIJ ST NICS girl came in and she sat at the table infront of me. she was alone and then SUDDENLY she started talking really loudly to the guy beside her in chinese and he guy looked scared event thought they know each other but not very well i guess. hhahaha the girl is super one kind cheena, rude, uncouth and not a tinch of elegance in her! i felt so embarressed by her as a woman. that poor guy looked so paranoid and scared at the girl because she talks with this super aunty cheena market style ! hahaha.... i felt really sad for her. her actions were ugly, the way she speaks was gross, the way she looks was alright but her total package was a FAIL!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA.......... sorry man... i am so sorry that u r such an animal! yucks! yucks!

2006-07-09T10:41:00.000-07:00

lots of stuff to blog about! haha the past 3 days have been quite an adventurous one for me! haha i had lots of fun and met up with my S "es" was so great! hehe...

on friday, we celebrated blim's bday at sem's place! hahaha we had so much fun together!!!!!!! we bought pepsi gold which looks like urine to trick blim and yes yes he got tricked! haha... he was suppose to guess which puzzel has his pressis inside and oh... he was terrible at it! there are packets sticked on the wall for him to choose. there are altogether 19 packs but in that 19 packs 1 of it will have his pressie and the last pack was the right pack. blim drank 15 glasses of vodlka and 1 cup of pepsi gold! haha... whatever it is.. it was super duper fun! then wong and jonas came!!!!!!!!!! miss wong so much! when i saw wong, those good old days of the 2 of us taking a group just flooding back in my mind. i can't help but miss those days where things were much easier. we had a great time catching up and talking and talking and talking and i reeallly love sexy and saucy! haha... i enjoyed myself so much! * lets play pick up 52* hahaha

then came saturday and is a very special day coz... COACH JULIAN AND MICHELLE GOT MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was my first time attending a christian wedding! it was so awesome so awesome! i really feel the couple become one. very sweet, romance was real and pure and the atmosphere was very joyous! i enjoyed myself very much! the bridegroom cried because he was so thankful so happy and so touched by the people and by his wife. what a great sight to see! at that very moment, i got a rush to find out who will be the man i marry. haha such moments do come after a very beautiful wedding. lydia and me wanted to catch a midnight movie but there isn't one which has a good timing so we ended up walking and talking for 3 hours! haha... it was really quality time spent togther. i love lydia to the core! i love her because she is so real and fun to be with and she is someone i feel safe being with. reached home at abt 3.40am! haha.. i need to own my own keys! haha

sunday.... went for service and it was very awesome. i love the rainbow! when i see rainbow i know... that there is someone who truly loves me kept his promise towards me. as a woman... i feel love and i am loved. had a short debrief on camp then to marina to eat. random random we went to the arcade and I CAN'T GO THE PARA PARA! thanks! dora was laughing her head off at me! haha yes i am not an arcade person. i tried playing all the games i failed all. hahaha... i had fun! hehe... great day and yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no sch tmr!

dreaming of u endlessly!

2006-07-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

was late for lecture today....

LS was boring! EH.... i am not sure, i wasn't listening. all that i was concious about is the tissue paper i need and hows my nose.

janice repaired my broken necklaces! thank u! u r really good! EH lecturer cancelled all lessons! i was so thrilled! haha... a sense of relief! hahaha

i finished auto cad in less than an hour today! hahahah FANTASTIC!

i am sleepy!

2006-07-04T08:18:00.000-07:00

a dream came true today.
a nightmare follows.

no more headache! praise jesus! nose still running but i know i'll be fine very very soon! i have this urge to buy the panadol cold relief from co-op tmr. haha maybe i'll go get it tmr during break time.

Dream that happened today. i was on my way to my block and i was so tired i had to drag my feet. my nose was running at 500km/min! how to catch? haha... i was feeling quite horrible in the morning but this little dream kept me going on. i was just thinking to myself, how awesome would it be if a RED car was to stop and send me to the block. the very next moment, i saw a red car stopped and i saw a hand signal which suggested COME IN! haha.. then i heard a very loud * pesss pesss* and i saw roger inside!!! I WAS SHOCKED! but i hurried into the car and yes my dream came true! haha... THANK U ROGER! i felt really happy and blessed at how a little dream can come true like that. haha...

the nightmare. this person i'm not very close to started calling me PRETTY GIRL as a name. i said thank you at first but after while i felt kind off sick. guess because its coming from a person i don't really know and is a bit weird. he started to ask me weird questions and says very suggestive stuff to me that makes me wanna puke! eeek! i am going to keep my cool and be still and pray! :)

I MISS GRET!!!!!! i want gret to be in my project team. with her ard, it would be fun and work done! right now... i just dread IS! i will get over it, i will overcome this whole dumb I.S and move on! i know i cannot but i know of someone who can! * tag team*

after every storm, there will always be sun shine! :) i'll go through that storm, i'll see through those dark clouds and there i feel the sun rays on my skin, there i see the bright shining light! so beautiful.

2006-07-03T05:40:00.000-07:00

not feeling well today. caught a cold i think, had a bad running nose and ridzuan film down my unglam side with tissues all over my table and me blowing my nose ! haha... thanks ritz for that production. haha

liao fan asked me" lynn, u how many nights never sleep?" guess i really do look tired today! haha... then i answered him " y? not enough make up? haha" he said" u got put meh? " hahahaha thats good i think... that would mean put make up or never put still look pretty! hahaha :)

huishi is down with a high fever and so she didn't come school.
emily is ill too, flu, cough, sora throat still came sch.
lynn, flu and a slight fever at the end of the day accompanied with a headache.

i am feeling better now actually... head not so pain but nose still running. whatever it is i'll still be a very happy girl because i am a blessed woman! and blessed woman is me! i pray all my friends who are ill do recover soon! healed healed!

haha... emily thot i will dress up to sch today but she was wrong, lynn thot emily would dress up today and she was wrong! hahahaha we both wore shorts and t-shirt to sch. emily got no blusher on her cheeks today and lynn's eyeliner got rub off when her eyes was itchy in the morning. haha... the 2 of us look one kind slack today. think abt it... i somehow still manage to enjoy the day. still happy still smiling and still looking forward to the next time the sun rises! :)

i don't know why but this sudden thot came to me. don't live as if life is so fragile, live with the fullest strength for the day! yes, and what makes that day is the every drop of moment u have. don't think that life is weak, fragile and it cannot. that is so wrong, life can be so strong so powerful so great! for u to find out everyday for i know who secures my day.

2006-07-02T09:45:00.000-07:00

life have been really good. busy yet enjoyable mundane yet special.

i can't wait for next friday when the ses are going to reunite !!!!!!!! miss sexy miss saucy miss suave but suave not so much. haha...

today ended very neatly.
after service, i hang out with lydia, kaiyan, mary jane, shijie and johnny! hehe we ate KFC! yummy! then we went to shop ard marina sq. the zara sales was crazy! everything left there are all so big so huge i cannot fit! i need a s or a xs! all that was left was L and XL! MADNESS! nvm... i'm going town tmr to find the shorts i like, i pray there is still size!

hang out hang out, tried on this dress which has very comfortable material but a weird cut. haha don't understand where the designer is coming from. haha.. quite dumb.

then we met coach ron and we so we sat down and started a casual conversation and as the flow leads... coach ron started sharing his past life and even recently... very real. very personal and also... full of jesus. coach ron said" if u cannot see jesus in the mundane, even when u r in the highs... u cannot see him as well" very filled! thanks coach ron! what a great priviledge to hear u share. thank u!

ate 4 hotdogs and i'm going to sleep!.

2006-06-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

song: Jesus love only us
tune: save the best for last

you are the king who died for me
you are the prince of peace to me
you set me on the mountains high
you gave up heaven's best to die

you said that i am called for such a time
u tell me i'm ur choice
and even if i am the only one
you will still take up the cross

i am the apple of your eyes
i am the special girl you love
u said u'll always be my man
and forever u are my strength.

And forever you are my strength.......

2006-06-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a miracle happened to me today! * smile from ear to ear*
day in the morning was fine. sunny sun and lots of photo taking session with my gfs! haha... got back my land survey result and i got 92 % whoo hoo! praise jesus! janice passed me the belt today! nicey nicey! talked to roger also... quite funny heehee. met kairu on my way to class... mouldy mouldy! haha... whatever that means.

lessons after lessons and wednesday is the day i dislike most because i always have to brace myself for AUTO CAD. some design module which i am not very good at. today.. is results day. we are going to get back our results and of coz i mentally prepared myself for the worst! haha.. c'mon, i didn't finish my drawing, my dimensions were wrong and my picture was horrible. haha.. what do u expect?

TEACHER: LYNN
lynn: yes?
TEACHER: COME AND SEE UR RESULT
lynn: ok. ( fumble along the way to teacher's table)
TEACHER: SEE.
lynn: hm. ( i passed! 50! i wanted to scream! )
TEACHER: WAIT. SEE UR TUTORIALS 83!
lynn: hm..* smile non- stop* ok. thank u!
TEACHER: NEXT!

hahahahhahahahhaha.... i was so happy! i passed! i can't believe it! JESUS U R REAL IN MY LIFE! HAHAHA... i mean for REAL! HAHA... serious man! i was so happy! on my way out after class, i was jumping and posing some victory pose for huishi to take shots of me! haha... i am so happy so glad so thankful so favoured!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes! i am really very glad.

came home... then i realised my neighbour saw me waiting for bus this morning, farzial saw me at bus stop, jong saw him at school... hm... who else? not sure.
neighbour bought me 2 boxers! whoohoo CK alright! haha... love it!

u r the king who died for me
u r the prince of peace to me
u set me on the mountains high
and u gave heaven best to die.
( sing with save the best for last tune)

2006-06-26T22:37:00.000-07:00

i zhaoed school today! haha... i have 4 hours worth of classes today and i refuse to go! yes i refuse to go! first, it starts at 8am and i couldn't wake up! 2nd maths today lecture so attendance is void. 3rd i can't wake up! 4th i can't wake up! 5th i can't wake up! hahaha....

emily msged me and told me not to worry because mr teo will teach me the the new instrument so no worries at all! praise jesus! yes! no worries at all!

i got 83/100 for my maths too!!!! i can't believe it! i never expect a 80 and above score for my maths... i thot to myself.... if i can get a 70 i will party already! but i got more than that! i got 83! 8+3=11 and 11 means the 11th hour! woahooohooo!! really praise jesus! and better grades to come and ur grace i receive! 2 papers down, 2 more to go! the other 2 are the tough ones but still i won't worry but give thanks for whatever good i have received!

mortals put on immortality.

2006-06-25T18:41:00.000-07:00

yeah!!!! i completed 1/2 my homework within 1hr during another lecturer's class! hahaha... yes! i A* MY ENVIRONMENTAL HEALTH!!!!!!!!!!!! whoohoo!!!!!!!!!! i got 83/100! praise jesus!!!!!!!!

i am one happy girl right now and always will be.

lover of my soul.

2006-06-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

ADVENTURE CAMP 2 !!
i'm going to blog about my 5days 4 nights at ubin right now! haha.. i feel so excited even to blog! haha....

day 1. advance party. a few of the leaders, camp com and the adult helpers came to help load, unload, unpack and to pack all the logistics! is so much so much! i was shocked to see the amount of logistics we have. hahaha... the moving was tiring but was fun too! thanks guys for being so strong and macho and of coz gentlemen! haha... we girls didn't sit and do nothing alright. we move stuff too!

day2. main party came in and we the advance party went to welcome them in GOD knows what way! haha.. it was quite funny! oh oh oh!!! i pop my first popper!!!!!!!! hahaha... so happy! haha... we heard that the main party felt really welcome and yeah! thats the point! haha... we did silly things while waiting for the boats to come. haha.. main party came in... we had p&w and then jungle trek! haha... after jungle trek we did field cooking at the beaches! it was so fun! i am always so amused at how field cooking food always tastes so new so fresh so good! great thanks to chef johnny, jarett and all those who cooked! thank u! p&w at night was awesome. it was a moment just me and jesus and me enjoying his presences all over me. i couldn't help but cry... i cried because i was moved by his love, his love, his love. then pastor daniel came up to share abt wayne and i couldn't stop crying again.very touched very moved.

day3. the camp com missed the morning service because we had to set up all the station games.well, thank god that the station games were great! i took a super fun and exciting station called the standard obstacle course! haha it so dirty! i love it! i would say that my station was the most exciting one ! hahaha.. love it! the clean up part was very fun! hahaha..... so fun because we went all crazy and cliff just let go all his wacky ideas. haha... service was night was very sweet. pastor did preach. was very good really hit the hearts of the youths.

day4 . the morning service was awesome awesome awesome! the flow of the whole service was so new, so special so full. i couldn't explaine the sight i saw right before my eyes because whatever i see cannot be compare to what i felt to what it is as a whole. all i can say is that.... jesus walked in. after service we had water war game!!!!!!! it was happening happening water war game! we all had his super snoker water gun and it was so fun! hahahaha... i got all wet but it was shiok! sammi and daniel are 2 very good looking and cute little boys i know! haha... i was playing with them and then we moved to the main area for the real war! hahaha... great fun!!!!!! after that we had the best dinner ever!!!!!!!!!! won't tell y what it is. haha...
we had campfire and we got this FREAKSHOW! hahaha.... i was shocked at all the crazy things done by the youths! like how their hands can fold and fold and fold and form a hole and that hole goes through their head! hahah wat the heck right? some can eat their own feet standing straight! haha... some tongues could do kallang wave! haha sick sick sick! some of their knee bones can be shifted! * SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* indeed a freak show. hahaha
after every every thing... because is the last night we had to pack up. while packing up the com when all high! high on sugar! hahaha.... i laughed till i couldn't breathe. i lauighed till i got cramps! i laughed till i tear a few drops! hahaha.... we sang we cheered and we went into this high mode that kept us going while packing! hahaha... we were all speaking in chinese by then. the game was... whoever speaks in english will have to drink condenses milk! hahaha... we cheered in chinese ! haahaha so cute!

day 5. home sweet home!

great thanks to : coach jason the best camp commandant!

great thanks to: adults helpers for being so excellent and faithful and helpful and so cute and funny and loving and so DARE to play! haha... thanks a lot! really appreciate your help. ( jia hua, mary jane, suyang, alwin, mark, coach ron, anthony,tim, faith,charmain,anna,thomas,chin wah,gary, keon,shijie) that should be all.

great thanks to: all the yls and coaches for ur great support!

great thanks to : all the macho men who helped carry all the heavy stuff! thank u!

great thanks to: the camp com ! love u guys!

great thanks to: PASTOR DANIEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

greatest thanks to: JESUS! THANKS FOR COMING.

2006-06-18T10:06:00.000-07:00

i've got an interesting and a happy dream to blog abt! haha

i dreamt that i was out with shila chewy and my boyfriend( god knows who). we were walking along esplanade, talking rubbish, strolling like how a normal outing would be. then all of a sudden i stopped and so shila and chewy turned around, looking at me waiting for me to speak and yes i opened my mouth and said " we are getting married" knowing shila she said " so... u r the one lynn likes... it must be quite hard a life right? " chewy is laughing and laughing andteasing me and i stood there all red ! hahaha...

i woke up laughing ! hahah... all i could remember about this boyfriend i am going to marry is that he was tall! about 3 heads taller than me. HAHAHAHA i'm married! IN MY DREAM! hahaha... so funny gosh i can't help it but laugh...
u know i am so glad the guy i am going to marry is tall because that would mean he is surely not HCL! haha....

HAPPY BLESSED FATHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!
fathers are just so important in our lives! don't be such a cold shoulder to say NO. because fathers are indeed a very important figure in our lives. be it a girl or a boy, fathers have this special touch, special factor about them which has the power to either make or break a child. not easy on u dad! love u! and i wish all fathers a happy blessed blessed father's day!

daddy god. thanks! thanks!

i'll be away for 5 days!! hahaha excited and excited and excited!

2006-06-17T11:23:00.000-07:00

i thot i could wake up for service today but i was so wrong! haha service starts at 3pm but i woke up at 2.04pm!!!!!! haha rushed out of my bed and still manage to eat my lunch before leaving the house haha cab cab cab!!!!!

service was short and good especially the worship part. if there is one thing i caught today, it would be the knowing of this love that will not miss the mark. i didn't feel anything emotional or cry until god knows how. everything was very stable very calm and gentle to me and i enjoyed this kind of treatment very well.

service ended and we had leaders meeting and pastor shared about how his one week had been and this boy name wayne is involved and i know him! he is a boy with a certain condition which causes him not to be like a normal boy but his faith his attitude towards life and towards God amazes me so much till my tear non stop during the sharing. yes he may seem so useless nothing at all in the natural but he has it all in the spiritual and he has it all deep down in his tiny heart and that makes him a WINNER! i really humble myself and even want to learn from him. i don't know why but his little life has touched me. thank you wayne.

my cousin and i went to digged out our old school cds and i felt in love again with daniel chan's songs! haha i looked back and think to myself why on eath will i like an ah beng! alright this singer name daniel chan or don don is quite an ah beng in his dance , style and looks but he still look quite cute la. hahaha my cousin and me had a great laugh and what we were both crazy for in the past hahahahahahah

ai ni tou ni is one of my favourite song!

2006-06-15T23:26:00.000-07:00

its 2 more days to adventure camp! i am excited although this excitment is mix with lots of fears and the unknown. i am still going to brace myself and jump into the unknown and make it known! yes i'm going to do it and the best part is i know i am not alone.

yesterday i had dinner with my com and it was a real moment and we told each other our fears and the journey we took. its a personal walk that no man can fully understand and no man can really help. is part of growing up i guess. * kids out there, enjoy ur fun little days and stop thinking abt growing up! * its not as easy as u think it is-- silly boy and silly girl!

at the end of the day i just want to give thanks and be grateful for the the blessings and great friends god has blessed me with because in this life everything can go wrong but HE cannot and HE will not. all things are beautiful in HIS time and i want to be someone who awaits the best and see the best right before my eyes. i don't want to rush and get myself into unwanted circumstance.

time goes on, life moves on, and so will i
but as i walk this walk of life,
i'll still give thanks and enjoy U.

i see no value in allowing myself to go into an emo session which i define as emotionally unstable. hahaha don't u think so? i mean.. yeah girls have their time of the month but still is not an excuse to dwell in that E-M-O nest. yar i know we are just human but because we are human we have a choice to make! to either emo all day or to style it all day! is a choice we have to make everyday!!!! I MADE MINE, HAVE U? hahaha so advertisment line. oh well... love u!

2006-06-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

i love daniel franco! i love DANIEL FRANCO!

i admit he is not the best designer of all but he is one guy i will respect! i saw how he stood for his team members and know his place as a team leader. great leadership over there dude! not just that but how he stood by his principle and is very focus. frankly speaking he needs to learn to be more open to ideas more receptive to others. whatever he is, he is better off a person compared to dirty looking santino!

he sold his team member out! when i was watching his reaction and his attitude...i was utterly disappointed! great skills, great creativity , great designer but suck as a person sucky attitude sucky behaviour... what the hell man? he should get out.

i agree that i don't just buy product, i buy the whole package. these are just basic manners one should learn along the way.

2006-06-11T08:46:00.000-07:00

i had this dream that felt real but of cause a dream is just a dream.

i met this person F eariler during the evening and F appeared in my dream. I was so tired yesterday that i knock out once i hit the bed. somehow or another this dream has its interval and during those interval i'll naturally wake up and go back to sleep again and the dream would go on.

i dreamt that F gave me a bottle of coloured dices! these dices have got pictures on it! they look quite cute to me in my dream. then... i received a piece of crushed tissue paper from my secondary school chairman. i open it up and that tissue paper is actually a handwritten letter from F! F signed off as a smily face! haha.. then i saw W behind the scene and W got me excited! HAHA... then is back to F again. this time round i saw F talking to C saying " i'm going to do it this time!" so... F went into a bookshop and bought a piece of coloured paper and started writing. * i have no idea what was written on the paper* I know... when i received the coloured paper from F... i started smiling very cheerfully and i was very glad! then i saw F handing me a bottle of coloured dices again. YUP! THATS THE END OF MY DREAM OF F,W AND C. haha...

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT. even until now i'm still trying to figure out what is F W and C trying to tell me or what have they got to do with me. haha.

so silly huh... yar... i think so. how i wish i could recall how the beast looks like. :(

2006-06-09T20:48:00.000-07:00

right now is 11.45am and i am in suntec macs doing proposals after proposals. my heart seems to beat very fast these few days. i can feel it beat so strongly that sometimes i can't breathe. pls... is not the kind that i will get a stroke and die at the age of 17. its the kind of fast beat that tells me i am nervous or anxious about something.

actually i know what they are but i have this urge to run away everything i feel this beating in my heart. i know i am nervous and i'm also anticipating for adventure camp at the same time but.... is scary! as the camp draws nearer and nearer and i look at the things left undone... i feel like becky bloomwood! NERVOUS.. SCARED... COLD SWEAT...UN-BREATHEABLE...AND THE LAST THING WOULD BE feeling my eyes heavy. i've never done sometime so big as this before.

i'm going to have a long day! proposals,briefing, mass dance, planning, printing and then finally... party! i can't wait for the party! i'm going to let my hair down and have fun! i made a pact with HIM 2 weeks ago and i know he will keep it and show it forth.

i need the strength and the energy !!!!! c'mon GO GO GO!!!!!!

2006-06-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

weird day.

i am serious! today is a complete weird day for me. its not just weird but messy yet still in place, see i told u it was weird.

i woke up slightly later than expected time and i thought i would be late for paper because that bus 93 took 1564786355564435647 years to come! thank god bus 52 came in 1 min time! whoohoo.... oh! when i left my house, i remembered the sun was bright,floor was dry, sky was clear, clouds were cotton candy white! when i board bus 52, 3 mins later.. i hear thunder, sky was dark, floor was wet, clouds were coloured black and sun was gone. i looked down at my feet and realised i wore my anti friction slipper to school again! *DANG*

what to do? walked like a ah ma. alright paper was fine. its more do-able than i thought! well... hope i get a B ! after paper it was super early! say.. 10.15am? early right? haha.. emily huishi and i decided to go town to shop and eat breakfast and so we did! haha... our first outing! so exciting! haha.. we looked at dresses tried dresses looked at hairbands tried hairbands and i bought a pair of pink shoes! matt-gloss mid pink pointed covered wedge. $15 only! whats a bargain! haha... must get! hehe.. yes i got it!

after town... i was heading back to bt timah area to pine grove and so i took bus 171 back to sch area... i dosed off and missed my stop and i have no idea how to get back! there wasn't any opp bustop! i walked my way back to sch area where there is bus 61. i walked through mini jungle, roadsides,traffic ways, under bridge, puddle of water and i saw butterflies having SEX! haha... so irritating! those horny butterflies were flying ard me while playing hard to get! haaha... so silly.

finally! i reached the stop. waiting 10 mins for bus 61. took the bus and i swear i was super alert but u know what... i missed my stop again! i went all the way to queensway and still don't know i have missed my stop! whats wrong with me!??? nvm. i alighted in the end and took bus 61 again from the opp bustop. yes. afraid of missing the stop i asked the bus driver to confirm i was on the right bus. then... i still feel lost and confuse and daze! so i asked the girl beside me, where is pine grove? haha she got a shocked but still very friendly and helpful. she offered to help me ask the bus driver and YES YES YES! I GOT OFF THE RIGHT BUSTOP! and walked in the rain to my coach's place. the rest are what thats in place.

super beat out ! but still.............. thank u jesus.:) i know why its so hard for me to like a man because i've tasted love so pure so divine so full! anything thats below standard i cannot accept anymore.no more 2nd best.

2006-06-07T02:19:00.000-07:00

3 down! 1 more to go! and i'll be free!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!! * jump ard in the living room* hahaha

environmental health paper was not too bad. i think phs has trained me to write fast and accurate and now... for all written papers i finished within 30-40 mins when the time limit is 1 1/2 hours or 2. hm.... don't know if is good to write fast and finish the paper fast. everytime i am done... i feel as if its too quick to be good even if i studied. hm....

i've got another surprise again! thanks to huishi of coz! she got em and me * kinder surprise* heheh.. so cute! we ate the chocolate and found a little toy inside! haha... so cute! we were all fixing the toy and comparing whose toy is cuter! haha... emily got this alien. huishi got 2 hairy monster and 1 got an apple with a worm! so cute!!! love it! childhood days seem to come streaming back into my mind once again. all those fond memories of playing and jumping around thinking no one is watching! haha...

i love huishi ! she would help and teach and give as much as she can! what a girl! i love emily ! she would cheer and do crazy things to perk us up and get us started! haha...

i love JESUS most because he gave me these beautiful girlfriends!

2006-06-06T02:30:00.000-07:00

haha is the 2nd day of common test and i am going fine.

its a rainy day today and i quite like the rain. while waiting for my bus... i watched how the rain water would hit the ground and then slide downwards not knowing where that path leads! sounds like life huh? haha... then my bus came. board the bus and there i watched the rain hit the window and dance before my eyes with endless new style! so beautiful!

went school and there i see my girlfriends!!! haha i love love them! yup we met and guess what? 1st surprise * huge watermelon lollipop with a bell!* hehe... yup! huishi got em and me each a big watermelon lollipop! hehe... so happy!

2nd surprise* huishi almost fell* we were walking walking walking we were in this public area where quite a lot of people will be doing their own work. SUDDENLY... i saw huishi slide and slipped at the same time in this super graceful manner! her legs apart hands everywhere! and screams real loud! hahaha... the next thing i know... her hands were on me and she is pulling my jacket and me being me... i grab her and pull her back ! haha of coz she didn't fall in the end! haha... she screamed and i screamed too! haha.. this emily standing infront of us looking very helpful but... the fact is she did nothing but laugh! haha... after all that drama mama... we 3 burst out laughing like we have just finished watching lao fu zi! hahaha... it was quite an unusual moment!

paper was good! thank u jesus for it is good!

2006-06-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

yes is the common test fever... had my first paper today and it wasn't very good. first paper was autocad and autocad was bad!

alright... i thot there would only be one drawing to do but no! there were 2! the first drawing... i did draw the outline and the features but no dimension and drawing not completed. my drawing was ugly! i never want to see it again!

2nd drawing was easier and yes it was nicer compared to the first one. i didn't manage to complete drawing 2 as well...i forgot how to do certain stuff and so... it was left unwholesome. what the heck! both drawings were not up to mark but still i give thanks. i was upset for a while then i catch myself there and then as i read through my daily devotion that i am the righteousness of god in christ. what i depend on is HIS perfect work. i said a little prayer to jesus i said" since u r the one perfecting it all, then what i felt undone unfinish, u will finished it up for me. thank you jesus" that moment my eyes were watery and i do not know why.

all that happened at that split second was that i remembered is not my work, not my strength and surely not how smart i am... but is all about him and him loving me. when my eyes felt watery... i felt as if those tines of first love came back. i just felt really thankful and appreciative.

yup! studying for eg1! haha... go go go!!!! i did my prep because his grace lead me to... and now... his power will see me through!

u know... life is so full of the unexpected. u wanted to be a doctor, u ended up a banker. u wanted NUS u ended up SMU. u wanted a prince... u ended up with a frog! HAHAHAHA....

the outside is never stable, just like the world! but... i know my inside is stable. everytime i cry over something silly i know my inside will calm me down and bring me back on track again and there i go soaring once again. sometimes we all just need to learn how to stay still and breathe properly.

beautiful.

2006-06-03T11:09:00.001-07:00

happy blessed bady pastor daniel!

service today was one kind funny and was excellent! everything was so accurately spoken. enjoyed my day actually.

yar... i didn't know how would my day turn out in the morning. everything felt so lost and i felt lost! i woke up feeling confused and aimless went to eat my breakfast ate so much i almost puke! then read through my notes for a while no concentration at all. everything turned ard once i came home.ate moderate amount for dinner watch a little tv used the com for a while and then started studying.

yup... this time round more stuff absorded and i feel so awake right now! hahah... alright thats about it i guess and i am going to get back to my notes soon! full marks for everything single paper including the killer ones! i'll give my 1% and rely on JESUS for the 99% amen! amen! all shall be well!

shopping! outings! meetings! plannings! partyings! dancing! singing! playing! ( after common test) oh! VCDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE RAIN!

2006-06-03T11:09:00.000-07:00

2006-06-02T03:56:00.000-07:00

what an adventurous morning i have! alright... this is how it goes:

lessons starts at 9am and at 8.30am i'm still home eating my breakfast. i was about the leave the house and my door bell rang! * guess who* my uncle kiang was at the door and i cannot be more thrill to see him! seeing him will mean i will get a ride to school free!!!! haha... yup! so my uncle kiang sent me to school. alright... before the climax let me give u guys a brief idea of this uncle i have. he is fun and weird! he is lazy yet helpful. he contradicts himself like no one can. yup... and so uncle kiang was late for work and i am late for school. we were on our way to ngee ann poly already and then uncle kiang made a wrong turn with no other way out!! he decided to drop me on the EXPRESSWAY! YES FOR REAL... HE DROPPED ME AT BKE and told me to go and find a way to get to school! i walked alone on that expressway feeling scared coz i don't want to die in the morning on an expressway run down by a lorry! haha... lots of drivers slowed down to look at me, probably wondering what on earth is this girl doing on an expressway! HAHA... yup.. i walked and walked then because of fear, i climbed over the metal barricade to the other said which is truly greener! haha those were the grass.

i was so afraid a mornitor lizard or a snake would appear in front of me! thank god... nothing of this sort happened. the grass were pretty friendly and gentle with their morning dew all over my feet! haha... after walking for 10 mins i finally reached the back gate of my school but i had to jump over to a steep slope of soil to reach the gate! i was wearing my super slippery slipper and so i prayed and jumped at the same time! haha ( girls can multi task) and yes i finally made it to school! 2 girls saw me on my adventure and they smiled at me. well, i gave a " what a day" smile back to them! haha... washed my feet and ran to class!

what an adventurous morning i got! hahah u don't get to walk on expressway all the time! haha..

2006-05-31T08:22:00.000-07:00

i love THE PROJECT RUNWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thats my favourite show! i love it! watching it makes me feel so overwhelm at these designers creative ideas and skills! how i wish i can sew too and i will do dresses after dresses i'll paint tee shirts after tee shirts and i will cut all ur jeans into shorts and sew pretty little butterflies at ur butt! i will make my own mini skirts with designs of my own and sell them if i want! haha how fun!

project runway brings out the intensity of time and the atmosphere feels air-tight! almost unbreatheable! really! i feel the emotions and the excitment for them and i always get so thrill when i watch those models walking down the runway with their clothes on! HAHA... so amazing how they turn something as ordinary as cloth to such a beautiful piece of garment!

beautiful beautiful!!! OH! there is this guy who started crying while explaining his design! haha i think he is damm gay and he is so emotionally unstable which is damm scary! can u imagine if one day he was to go mad what would happen? haha he probably take poking himself with a needle or worst! poking others with the needle! what the heck right? such a cry baby. guys whon cry at the wrong time feels so lousy and ugly! don't u think so?

i suddenly feel like designing a yellow dress! hehe

2006-05-30T09:27:00.000-07:00

life can really be quite beautiful!

yup! common test is just next week and i have started studying, meeting up with lecturers to clarify all my doubts ... sounds quite hardworking yeah!hahah... of coz! i wanna make my 3 years stay in ngee ann fruitful ( doesn't mean i need a cca) beautiful and power-full! hahaha

which means. i wanna do well, enjoy my everyday with classmates and have lots of fun while learning! i pray that this energy i have for school will not die down.

ngee ann is so damm happening! they have stalls set up selling clothes! like mini skirts tee shirts slippers ....etc! mini skirts are only at 20 bucks! very cheap! i am going to get one! hahaha... tees... alright la. i prefer the real a&f. hehe

slippers are not bad too. after the thailand trip... i am not very willing to spend 8bucks on a brandless slipper because i know they cost only 1buck in thailand! hahaha.. i remembered i bought 7 pairs! hahahaha

i might wanna make a trip down to thailand at the end of this year. either thailand or hongkong! i really wanna travel! of coz... my first choice is always ISRAEL! BEAUTIFUL PLACE WITH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!

common test, bless bless bless
life, bless, bless ,bless
family, love,bless,love,bless
money, more more more more!
health, great great great great!
time, a lot a lot a lot a lot!
haha.... emo no more! :)

2006-05-27T09:53:00.000-07:00

did my maths homework! studied a little little bit. not bad for a start. :)

mum and grandma were talking about money issue to me when i was doing my work. i felt irritated and wanted to be rude to them by telling them to shut up. thank god i didn't. somehow i know thats their traditional way of communication. no wonder there is generation gap! haha

mum kept asking me.. what time u going out? 5 mins later... still not going out??? 10 mins later..... what time u going out??? 15 mins later... still not going out?..... whatssup man? must i really go out on a sat if not the day don't seem right? hahah madness!

fine.. i went to bathe wore my broken record shorts and a puff sleeves white tee took my puma and left the house all smelling fresh and pretty! went to suntec of coz... my 2nd home. went for campus svc. svc was really awesome and i learnt a lot. i also believe that wisdom has already been imparted ! so exciting!!!!

the highlight of the day is a little story i wanna tell u : ryan johnny cliff jer yan and me went swensense for ice cream!!! and we orderd 2 topless 5 which makes it topless 10! hahah 10 little ice-cream without any clothes!!! sexy! haha... anyway... so everyone named a flavoure and i wanted 2 lime sherbert! but everyone was like " lynn, no! lime sherbert is not nice! no no no!" i was a bit sad because lime sherbert is my favourite ice-cream flavour! the first time i ate it when i was in p3 i fell in love with that fresh lime freeze taste and never forget it. when the order came.... the manager who served us gave an extra scoop of lime sherbert especially for me in an individual serving. she said " i can see u really like lime sherbert so i took an extra scoope for u " i felt so touched so thankful. i thanked her and i prayed a blessing over her! she made my day end beautifully with an extra scoope of lime sherbert! haha... really.. i just felt so love by daddy god because its his favour upon me that caused this priviledge to happen. felt so bless so happy and so thankful.

people always say that i am so easily amused and easily glad... well thanks ppl. i take that as a compliment because to be being glad being happy is what makes life more meaningful. so hard for what? relax take a deep deep breath and soften ur muscles and chill... i think life feels so much more happening and enjoyable compared to a back to back timeline. yeah? hehe...

LIME SHERBERT!

2006-05-27T00:08:00.000-07:00

i had a nightmare last night!!!!

i dreamt that i was in ngee ann poly and i was walking along the co-op street known as the np's orchard rd. i was walking down the stairs towards the library and i saw this person holding a girl's hand. i can't see who the person was but i remembered i did say hi and left with tears rolling down my cheeks.

when i woke up, i touched my face and my cheeks felt wet as if i really did tear. boo that dream! nothing of such sort shall happen to me. what makes me feel not right is...... who would be that person? the thought of it makes me feel so sick.

2006-05-26T06:53:00.000-07:00

CT is coming!!!! alright i am going to start my study camp today! i'll sleep late tonight to do some maths. finish up all homework. then start on my revision. yup.

i'll do all tutorials and revise all that was taught! yes! i am going to do it and nothing is going to stop me!

i don't know what to type already and so i am going to stop here! favoure on me and wisdom in me!

2006-05-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

school today was great! miss huishi quite a bit. she has cramps and so did not turn up for class. huishi is always the battery among emily and me. emily is the machine which goes with the battery and sometimes the machine might go out of hand! hahaha.... for me, i am the mode. sleepy, hungry, crazy or pure high-ness. HAHAH yup! that would give u the 3 of us.

i thank GOD for friends like them in school! they brighten up my day and also leave a little shimmer behind my path each day. thank u and i love u! ;)

today landsurvey was fun yet not so fun. haha... fun cause kairu roger n janice are all great ppl to be with and they are easy going pretty helpful and they ain't dead bored! hahaha... so working with them today was quite a fun thing. weather was such a bad-ass. so hot! and huishi isn't there so.... we all felt as if we missed something and so i would assume is her. can u imagine, the machine and mode is running on their own without the battery. haha... how to? i got this terrible thing about me and that is... when i am sleepy and tired i can be even lazy to talk and that moment i won't be bothered with many things. i'll simply live in this swimming world of my own until i get onto to bed then that swimming world would stop. emily was hungry i was sleepy and so.... we both talked very little and try to conserve as much energy as possible for maths lesson later which almost sent us to " the tree with lots of apples " ( dreamland) . we manage to survive

hahahaha i always have this image in my mind that dream land must have trees and trees must have apples on it and trees have to be huge and big and the trunk has to be super thick and dark brown in colour and i will be sitting under that big apple tree eating apples! hahaha

had JUBILEE gathering just now! it was so fun! hahaha love everyone of them and really those moments are just so supernaturally fun and happening and i love it! so full of life and this special bonding atmosphere which sets everyone on the right mode and i believe a simple gathering like that is not that plain. through all these special friendships birth forth and the life element is there. so PRAISE JESUS for such a beautiful time as this.

lets meet under the apple tree. :)

2006-05-22T00:00:00.001-07:00

so much work to do.... actually is not so much work to do after all... is just so much revision. i think is high time to start my revision and do well for my common test and then enjoy my holiday to the fullest!!!! haha... quite sad that its only 2 weeks! i use to have a month holiday but not anymore.

i have not collect my o level cert even... gosh! when will i be discipline and head down sch to get it? monday is out because i end sch at 5pm tuesday i have sth on this week, wed, forget it i end at 6. thursday..... hm... alright thursday morning. i'll go collect my cert then head for classs since class starts at 3pm. ok settle!

-environmental health project

-landsurvey practical

-check landsurvey answers

-practice ur so happening maths

-study for manths test next monday.

-go and understand ur hydraulics

-do ur tutorials for hydraulics.

went shopping and it was so happening! haha... went shopping with my cousin and we bought a bag, 2 panties, 1 bikini top from voodoo and 1 bottom, 4 tee shirts and a very beautiful shorts! hahaha we had so much fun! we realised that we we were to shop alone, we won't buy anything which we had bought. haha.. so weird huh... wanted to get a medicure for my nails but it was getting late and the shops are closing so.... didn't! i will soon! i like the yellow nail with black cat. so pretty funky. i love love my grandma because she sponsored this shopping trip.
pte @ grandmama.

2006-05-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

2006-05-18T09:17:00.000-07:00

not a bad day... quite interesting actually. bought my new white bag to school and i am so proud of it! hm... i'll name my bag: BARCELONA. when i bought her, i thot it was just an impulsive purchase but never did i realise that it was a wonderful buy and i am happy! BARCELONA shall be her name.

during IS today, i had to do a semi formal presentation and it was my most nervous one ever! i was so nervous that my hands went numb! haha... serious! well... i its done and is over and i thank god for the not very useful comments ( examples were good, delievery was good, WHAT CAN I SAY?) what the heck say sth thats of use to me! whore!

i love my IS classmates they are so super fun and lively and is quite funny too! haha.... tink kee kept looking at me and we laughed at this particular person! if u were there, u will roll! hahahahahahaha so funny! the thot of it makes me wanna laugh again.

when for bible study and service was awesome! i was so amazed at how the whole bible is orchestrated and so specially written! no man can understand y issit written this what but every single word/ no./ names has its significant and a reason to themselves ready to be digged out! i realised it with my own eyes and i was stunted! i was speechless but more than just speechless, i want to dig those treasure out myself. only canal man like u think i'm wasting my time.

if u think u r so great and smart and clever try studying the bible and understand the bible and lets see what will be ur reaction after 1 week.

2006-05-17T05:21:00.000-07:00

high high high today!!!!!!!

food makes me high! so high i can't believe it! :p ate 4 pieces of bread in the morning 2 at home and 2 more in school! *yum yum* thanks grandma for those sandwiches only u can make! so much L-O-V-E ! hahaha...

lessons were fine and i was really quite impressed at how i managed to complete all 3 long long * blow out a candle* long long questions within class time. impressed at how when u start and take on the flow... and stand firm with a heart so sure that its going to be fine and it will be!

had environmental health class and it was monotone as usual but we make our own fun! sang 2 birthday song today! happy blessed bday to the 2 of u. i am so going to As EH ! i will!

lunch was great with a strawberry smoothie! haha.... ate the malay food at canteen 2 and the portion was huge! haha... thanks man. food so made my day! after that went for autocad class. i wanna thank my classmates hasina and michale for helping me if not i won't be home now! autocad is easy but i am so not use to it! its quite tough for me and i wasn't listening today and so it was worst! michale did half of my tutorial! haha thanks dude.

i will buck up and have extra lessons on my own and do welll for this so " beautiful subject autocad" and never touch it again! haha...

quite a beautiful day i must say. sunlight this morning was so fine.

2006-05-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I didn't really celebrate mother's day or did i get any pressie for my mum. i went for service and then to old changi airport rd to eat and home sweet home.

home ard 6plus.. thats pretty early for a weekend. the normal is 11pm the extreme is 5am. haha so 6plus is really quite early. service was really good although i was a little restless near end but i felt the substance deep down in my heart and i just knew that i am learning again.

just finished the work that needed to be handed up tmr. LYNN LYNN, pls take time to read ur books and study because i am so sure that u don't wanna pay 500 bucks yar!

not my battle but HIS. *tag*

2006-05-13T06:09:00.000-07:00

finally home sweet home from pulau ubin at abt 6pm.

went ubin for pre-adventure camp for the past 2 days and it was fun! took a ferry there early in the morning 10am. once we touch down activities start! hahaha... really! its pack pack pack.

first game was "walking on water" alright this game didn't work according to plan and so the whole dynamics of this game changed! 1 min before the leaders started the game we came up with a whole new way of playing it! hahaa...i'm quite amazed at the human mind in times of crisis. haha.... really! thats when the righteous remains righteous and the "righteous" became monsters! not just that, u get to see how selfish the some ppl can get and how some others would simply help with no strings attach.

next game was " tyre polo" this game is super super fun! yup! its pretty obvious isn't it? everyone is to sit on a tyre and play polo! haha... u get to see those kan ciong spiders standing up and trying to defend the ball and how they splash and splash everyone ard them! haha... it was a really exciting and ingenious game! haha...

must i add that the lagoon we played in is filled with fish's poo, alage and GOD knows what!! is ultra dirty! ( adventure) camp...

after all that... we went to wash up and guess what? it RAINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we did field cooking indoor! HAHAHA can u believe it! field cooking in the resort room. i thot to myself like " wow! so cool! next time i don't need to have a frying pan or a wok in my kitchen! just mass tins will do! save space!" hahaha... what a thought!

we did night walk of course! oh dang! the mozzie there are commando breed ok! they are capable of sting u through ur jeans, and shirt! insect repellant doesn't seem to have any effects on them! what the heck! when these COMMANDO mozzies sting u, u can feel this prick which is a little painful and it leave this stinging sensation behind for 2 secs. i got bitten a few times... say 5? haha.. yar is counted quite little already. johnny got COUNTLESS! haha...

after all that games and all... we went to hang out.. chat and enjoy each other's company! anjo lydia and me were taking pictures crazy pictures! haha.. everything was super random. haha... there is this video where we did the DA CHANG JIN greeting and after that we started to do roll ard and decided to let go some gymnastics! hahaha... it was super funny! we were all so tired after that we felt into a power sleep.

DAY ended with a rain beautiful and scented and i gave thanks for all the good that happened.

i didn't plan to dream about u but i did.

2006-05-11T07:45:00.000-07:00

okay... sch was 3pm to 5pm. just 2 hours and i can be home, what a short day! yup its really short and so i wore a boardshort,A&F polo tee and my specs! hahah its my first time wearing my specs to sch!!!!!! wearing specs makes me feel sleepy and everything around me seems to be swimming.

late for class again. when emily saw me, she said" wow late queen! u really live up to ur name huh?" i didn't know to feel embarress or to shameful. i don't want to be known as a tardy queen. i would love to be punctual too but.... i don't want to be too early alright i mean... i want to be just nice. not too late not too early. forget it i tried so hard! it never worked... this sleep and horrible mentality i have already won over me. i lost once more feeling lousy i'll walked away and brush that ugly thot away yet its always nagging at me like how a mosquito will buzzz at ur ear!

today's IS lesson was one kind boring this lecturer is going on and on about how to make a good presentation and etc etc etc etc and the worst is all her damm examples are like shit! her speech was boring and zero humor zero connection zero marks. i hate it! no one was listening except rinny. hahaha..... she was giving this becky ong lim 200 % of her attention. WOAH!

finally we got down to work gret em rinny and me are a team. our topic is ' dare to dream" i came up with it! * pads shoulder* ok i am going to be the last speaker and frankly speaking i never like being the last speaker. i am feeling a little being taken advantage of and like... i am left on my own kind of feeling.... this sucks! i can't concentrate. booo!

i love rinny gret and emily! i love them... i sure do.

came home and ate pork chop with chicken chop! aunty nancy cooked it!!! yummy yummy! i love my aunty nancy so much that i will never trade her for anything! nothing! even my future.

my day ended with a talk with my dad abt a motorcycle license. HE BURST OUT LAUGHING!!!!! what the heck! he said " u want u can go ahead... but make sure when u start the motor bike u r on it! " what rubbish! i'm gonna do it! i will. i'll get a vespa!

i realised i do like the taste of bitter + sweet.

2006-05-10T10:46:00.000-07:00

i have this sudden urge to blog suddenly! haha... i quite like this band called the x japan. their songs are truly who they are. but they are not what the look. if u guys know abt X japan u will get what i mean. they do dress madly but i guess its their way to better stage presentation.

click here to watch one of my favourite of X JAPAN http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fh_2kPu14o4&search=xjapan

i have this thing about guys with black nail polish. i think its pretty nice and it appeals very much to me. i tend to notice them more and of coz... pls carry it off properly if u do... because if u don't, u will just look like this piece of try too hard SHIT!

x japan has their own special way of expressing themselves which is quite an extreme but.. how many dare to do such things?
not many. everyone cares abt what ppl say or what they comment..... thats why there are a lot of things which we wanna do but due to all the external factors we are all held back.

if i were to be a 5 yr old kid again, i'll play in the rain naked and later roll in mud! i'll get all dirty and then take a nice hot bathe later and go sakae for dinner having my kids meal with vitagen!

2006-05-10T09:41:00.000-07:00

i woke up super late for school today. class starts at 9am and i woke up at 8.30am! i rushed like crazy!!!! i didn't even have time to think of what clothes to put on. i grab whatever thats hung ard my cupboard and put them on! i rushed out without breakfast....

thanks to the taxi driver, i manage to reach school on time to mark attendance! haha lecturer was really kind. oh i love how that taxi driver speed so fast for me and all the turns he made and the way he overtook all the other drivers!!! whoo hoo.... love fast drivers. i'll get car sick if the car is moving too slowly. wow... looks like i'm gonna be quite a fast and safe driver huh... haha

during my environmental health lecture, huishi offered me her mp3 and of coz i took it happily! hahaha.... i was listening to all the happy and fun loving songs and then this SUPER EMO song came, the worst is i know this song and everytime i hear it, it makes me feel upside down....ok according to my friends is called " THE EMO RAISING" while listening to the song i was thinking about stuff which makes me super filled with feelings for a moment kind of thing. i don't know how to put what i feel in words.

is like.... u feel sad yet silently glad... thats how i felt. i know one thing... this feeling makes me wanna tear and i did it just now. just one drop of tear.

went for stevens curtis chapman concert! so super good! i felt better after the concert but when i am home and all alone in my pink room that weird feeling came again. well... i really did enjoy myself at the concert.

so painful. so painful!!!!!!! arg!! i can't take it anymore. i can't. i know i can't. its really pain... how does it feel to not know what is going on when it means quite a bit to u? all along u wanted an answer just an answer to settle urself yet u r not getting it. all u have is the suspence which is salt to wound. so pain so pain.

told u i was feeling it today.

2006-05-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

ok. dancesports or canoe polo?

i like canoe polo because i love the sports team spirit and the game sounds super cool! the sports is so much more happening than dance sports! hear the name and u willl know!

dancesports is so fun to me. i love dancing! i learnt the cha cha today and it was fun! dancesports pretty put u in a good posture which i like. hahaha

see...thats y i can't make up my mind.

2006-05-07T08:13:00.000-07:00

u know... god's word is just so right that u ought to believe and follow. i did an experiement today and GOD won. i lost.

in mattew 6:31-33 says that "Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you"

today is sunday but i didn't go church. i stayed home because i want to spend time with my parents. for the past whole one week i've not spoken to my parents properly. when i come home, they are gone. i miss them. for a moment i felt like i don't have time to myself... i felt as if god was so selfish ! he took all of my time for himself and my school life and left me with nothing.

today i realised that during the past 2 weeks when it was hectic yet i trusted god for his grace and favoure, the past 2 weeks was so much more fruithful and productive than today! i had the whole day to myself but the day felt wasted.

yes i did spend time with my family but there isn't much substance in it. i wanted to do my work and revise but i was too restless to do so. i was bascially sleepy the whole day and it feels like shit! i kept eating and did nothing and it seem like i was in a permanant state of daze! i hate it hate it hate it!

thank god that there is no condemnation from now on for i am accepted in the beloved of christ and i am righteous still righteous because christ and me had already been crucified at the cross 2000 years ago. PRAISE U JESUS. thank u for still loving me.

2006-05-05T09:48:00.000-07:00

Sometimes the snow comes down in june
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise
cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough

And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you?re looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
Sometimes the snow comes down in june
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

You went and saved the best for last

i love this song very much!!! its so beautiful ! well man fails but as long as his heart is still true to u, i guess its worth that chance. little mermaid is one of my all time favourite! i think its time for me to invest in one little mermaid dvd. yup! i will go get it! haha... i feel so good! completed my IAC tutorial and my maths. guess its time to start revising and understand all that was taught for the past 2 weeks! sch is fun and exciting for u and me! *smiles*
U SAVED THE BEST FOR ME.

2006-05-03T09:49:00.000-07:00

what a freaking long day! 9am till 10pm! thats freaking long! lessons took 9am to 5pm with only 1 hour break! in fact is actually enough just that u won't get a chance to really relax and unwind. during the break u pick which canteen to eat from and which stall and u get ur food eat and its time to walk to ur classroom block. well... at least i got time for " i scream" yougurt! hahah is quite yummy i must say! hehe

lessons were fine... autocat wat tough yet still manage to do it. everything within school was as per normal besides i am extra sleepy today.

went for my 2nd canoe polo trg, this time round they ran faster the speed doubled and i pant breathlessly as i ran ok the bottomline is i am still fine and manage to reach destination not the last! haha.... we were told to do pull up with assistance. assist or not makes no difference! haha really... girls should never do push ups or pull ups because it makes the arms buff up and huge and ugly! well... when i was in phs's canoeing team... we did lots of running and yes we do do push ups but not 100 guys! we only did 50< guys standard and thats it! the rest of our trg is to build stamina!!!!!! hahaha... i enjoy doing all excersie which will help tone my tummy like crunches! haha i did 100 easily! so proud ar? haha...i'll head towards 200 the next round!

went dinner with the seniors and JAPPO is so cute! she looks like JJ lin jun jie! serious ! hahah... she is fun so fun and so full of crap! today's trg is much faster but not so tiring! haha... still tired!

now that i am home using my baby athrun(laptop) i thot i could just relaxed and surf the net to watch movie and stuff but HEY HEY HEY! once my athrun is on...i saw i've got 15 new emails and they are all serious emails no fun alright! deadlines, deadlines and more deadlines! things to note things to do and things to prepare. what the heck man.... life feels so pack up all of a sudden.

i felt as if i have no time to myself. i use to read now, i don't have the time to read my unfinish book which is due soon. i use to have time to go have drink or to town to shop but now... i miss town so much i miss hanging out with friends chilling and i sure miss watching a movie! life is not fun anymore yet still fun. is a different kind of fun althogether i guess but personally i still miss the fun i once had.

sleep is eternal, time is abundance and life is full of expectations because i plan what to do and what to complete within a day! when i did it... i feel good. now... everything is a must and a must and a must not so much of choice here yet we still can choose what the heck man. i hate such contradiction and life is one!

well it may seem all shit now but i still gonna believe that all things work for the good !

2006-05-02T00:29:00.000-07:00

yup! short day today! had a practical test today and i scored 9/10! haha... praise jesus! at first i thot to myself with pride " what an easy test! whats the big deal here man?" i really did repent because i know without His grace i would most prob fail the test because of pride. i thank god there is always mercy and grace abounding whenever i do wrong or even think wrong. many times in life, what we need is just a 2nd chances but yet not many wants to give that 2nd chance.

i was sleeepy and hungry during the test period because its done one by one so it was long and i was hungry! hahah that very moment when i felt hungry and sleepy i missed 5A. only 5A would know i'll go a little looney when that happens. haha my new friends ( emily and huishi) were just laughing and laughing. somehow or another the thot of lynn is in another planet might have just crossed their mind. well... i really don't mind being the joy giver. hahaha.... i will one day write book about my special class and name it THE 5As.

got to know some new friends today and they are roger and janice. haha... janice talks a lot and she seems pretty fun! haha roger is just cool and big. haha thats all i know.

went to crown centre to collect some products from aunty jasmin. aunty jasmin is pretty and rich and she is no tai tai. she is a business woman and she doesn't live off her husband that makes her even more beautiful but once she opens her mouth a tinch on uncouthness might sprank out all of a sudden. hahah thats aunty jasmin for u.

THE BEAUTY OF THE WORLD IS ALL THE WHILE INSIDE OF U. this statement came upon me during maths lesson.

swim and dance-lynnnnnnn

2006-05-01T08:12:00.000-07:00

happy labour day!!! well.... even its labour day today there are million and one people still working! hahaa... whatssuup man? can't everything shut down for a day? things should be still quite in place right? c'mon just a day off! it will never kill.

well... today the PAP ( people action party) came to my house and asked if we would like to take a picture with them. hahaha... i thought it was quite silly for someone with a place in the parliment to do such a thing. i am not saying its stupid i am just stating that... y the sudden extreme? hahaha... relax man.... i believe as singaporeans we all know that our government is a clean and transparent one and is worth trusting. i mean thats what SINGAPORE'S government is know for. relax and join the government! hahaha... i am not booing the workers party here... i just wanted to state a fact that the workers party is good as well but we don't want a good party to rule us we need a good and powerful party to rule us. simple as that!! haha

my wish is that election ends soon so i can enjoy my sleep better. try having loudhailers yelling at ur block to remind u to vote for the right person almost every morning! this sux ! ok... enough of all that election.

i went night safari last night with a group of israeli!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bascially dora lydia yan and me were ambs for the israeli because our church is hosting them and whats more they are youths thats y we are the ambs! ahahaha.... tell the truth, yesterday was my first time to night safari! hahaha well... its not as exciting as i expected it to be. i was thinking maybe we get to touch the lions and the tigers or the rinos! hahaha nope. none of that. all the animals are far away enough to see and not touch. ok fine. its quite an experience at night safari because its the night and its at mundai which is one of a kind far! hahaha

well, i had fun looking at some pigs and gigiantic spiderweb above my head. hahaha not forgetting the israelies. hahah they don't look their age at all!! they look older than their age. the girls are all pretty very nice and sharp features and the girls are all very cute and super bold! one thing i like abt them is that man's opinion has no hold on them. they are just who they are. they are not easily affected and is very stable and secure compared to us. it makes me wonder y... guess is the ACCECPTANCE of the father which made that different. they boys would come together and showcase their talents like dancing singing and creative singing!!!! i like that! even their girls are not shy! they dare to thank and say that they love ps dan out right like that. and they barely known each other. yet.... they would express their thanks openly. BEAUTIFUL. i like that special spirit. i believe that we as child of god have that special spirit too.

stayed home and packed the messy room of mine today! went pasa malam and i got some stickers and book magnet and some food.hahah i am so surprise at the food selection at this pasa malam. it ranges from simple hothog sticks to sharkfin soup! hahaha sharkfin soup is only $2!!!!! hahahaha yum!

food makes me go high! hahaha i pray that my metabolism rate will contiune to be high for the next 35 years! hahaha

2006-04-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

A day at home feels so good! First, I did my school work although i didn't finish it. i left 2 questions not done because my wireless was detected and WONG'S FAMILY when to secure their wireless. haha... i told my uncle sam what happened and he started laughing and laughing!

next i did my proposals. its supposed to be benchmark proposals but i don't think i did it. hahah its quite hard to do so. a lot to take into consideration and aiya whatever la... i personally feel that whats important is the content and how u present it which makes a whole lot of difference!! i am not finding excuses for myself but frankly speaking proposals should not have templates it should be something personal a way of expression and not DEAD-FIXED!

OK... enough of all that proposals which almost caused my life. haha... next it was dinner time and i did spend some quality time with my family! i love those family times where u just sit and watch tv together and talk about general stuff like school and ask some questions abt friends and so on... somehow or another jokes will come so naturally when spending family time. my mum wanted to ask me which bank is faith working at but she was a little tongue tight and said " which bank bank" hahaha... my dad teased her and we all laughed! hahah... i love it! thank u jesus for a blessed family. ME AND MY HOUSEHOLD IS BLESSED!

lynn.

2006-04-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

i blogged yesterday but the entry didn't appear. whatssup man???

hm... lets see what happened today..... first i was early and then i realised that i was suppose to wear shorts but it totally slipped off my mind!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. i got this pair of reef slippers like 2 yrs ago and it was left on the shoe shelfs for as long as god knows when. itchy backside me decided to wear it today and i got myself 4 HUGE blisters and i almost cried when the rained drops hit my open blister woundS. is really very pain.

i thank god for emily and huishi because they helped me buy plasters while i rest and always wait for me because i am walking mega slow. ahaha well... girls thanks so much so much. i really appreciate u girls help. thanks!!!! school with them is so much more fun!!! hahaha

one of my lecturer is an indian and his accent is so strong that i can't understand him at times!!!! i don't understand y such ppl can be lecturers when they are going to cause a whole lot of trouble because students can't understand them!!! hahah.... welll... is not that bad la its just bad.

went for cg after that. quite good. thank u jesus. thank u. i learnt 1 thing today and that is LOVE IS SELFISH. if love is not selfish then the person will never feel selfishly loved. just like god was selfish too. he loved us so much that he was willing to give up his son for us. if that is not selfish then what is? so... love is selfish only then can the person feel selfishly loved.

dance to the moonlight-lynn

2006-04-27T09:51:00.000-07:00

what a beautiful day today!!! the weather is fine, my mood is good, tummy is happy with all food, lips ain't dry with china apple and hands are just soft with body shop mango hand cream! hahaha

today i had I.S class. I.S is like a subject which is not related to what u r studying so its sth extra yet important. my I.S for this seme is called T57 which involves like public speaking, writting and presentation and sth else which i can't remember. hahaha oh well I.S class today was supeb! had so much with new friends- rinny and gret haha... we were 4 nutty girls today coz our break was suppose to be only 10mins but we took 30 instead! hahahaha teacher was angry oh! talking abt teach she is one cool 50 years old teacher. her name is BECKY ONG LIM! so cool rite? well i think is pretty sexy! haha... rinny and gret are just 2 super high I girls.. haha rinny can talk non stop and is always on a high while gret needs a kaki to do so and she has one! hahah... had so much o much fun during lesson today. PRAISE JESUS!!!

5pm came and lessons end. met kaiyan and we both went to Bs together. love kaiyan !!! i so needed plasters and guess what she has it! not 1 but 2!!! hahaha the actual fact is that she has 3 more in her walllet! haha... on our way to suntec, we met charles tang. he is one weird and weird and weird guy i have ever met! frankly speaking i detest him! he has this look which i can't stand and worst! he doesn't has a nice smile! what the dang! and he acts weirdly which makes it all W.E.I.R.D! hate it!

bs was really good and i saw how pastor's heart is so filled with love and protection to the church and the ppl. to know ur pastor loves u and cares for u is so important it makes u see god differently. all i can say is i feel really bless to be in new creation church and that i love all my pastors! hehehe...thank you JESUS for giving me only the BEST!

the KING loves me-lynn kok.

2006-04-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

what a long day!! 9am till 8.30pm! lessons today were fine! did some work too. well it feels so weird doing maths sums and bio and geo when i stopped all that for like 5months? haha...the feeling is like generation gap. for this.. it would be called the subjects gap. well... at least i still manage to finished up all 4 maths sums and get the right answer for Q! not bad alright.

i was so hungry during lecture. kept thinking of the sandwich mama made this morning. hahaha... finally one tutorial was cancelled and we could all go for lunch!! haha...so happy!! i was jumping with joy! emily and huishi were laughing of coz... well i guess they are just not use to my behaviour sometimes. I MISS 5A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everyone is like MAD! M.A.D! haha... when we are happy we show the world... when we are sad.... we cry in toliets! hahahaha yup! thats what we do. when we dislike someone or a class we show it like it is upfront. we don't really care. haha... even so... we still had so much favoure with teachers and friends. hehe.. teachers called us the "charming class" haha.. well... that is because we draw the crowd with our words, our eye contact, our talents and our charm of coz. haha.. LOVE 5A TO THE CORE!

went for my first canoe polo land trg. tiring tiring tiring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! super tiring esp when i stopped all that exercise for like 5 months. haha.... it was still fun. seniors were really nice ( girls) guys were abit weird. ok... i think all this rubbish habit of pin pointing weird behaviours are just some trades to show that i am a real blue 5A girl. haha the president's name is LEX.NOT SEX. HAHAHA HOW FUNNY CAN THIS GET??? TELL ME! well i think it was damm rubbish when he said it but know that i think back... its quite a joke huh? haha... the vice president name PETER. haha... wat a name too! so cool ! peter pan ! peter chan! peter and JANE! haha the story boooks i used to read when i was in primary school it all becoming real life! haha.. TALL AND NICE BUILD peter do exist. haha..well.. he looks like the lead actor in one of the taiwan drama i watched. but he has some weird style that spoils his whole package. haha...
next is this guy with this really low voice who can sing LOWER THAN THE BASE! haha.... he looks real strict and has the " don't mess with me because i ain't no fun guy" look which tickles me everytime i looked at him! because its silly??? i don't know. ok these are just some funny stuff i remembered. THE GIRLS ARE REALLY NICE! one of them has this pair of super tone and slender legs and i adore! haha. she was my partner when running. forgot her name. *sharks*

something so embarressed happened,its one of the worst thing ever. this may not be embarressing to u but it is to me. i know many of u would like think is a not big deal but its damm big a deal to me. ok... i am just tired.

2006-04-25T07:34:00.000-07:00

2nd day of sch... its fine just that the weather is so hot and when i walk from one block to another... i burnt 500 cabs! haha believe it! haha...

today we learnt some funny stuff like the level. its quite fun. today's lessons were all very short and sweet. haha.. yes my laptop--->ARTHRUN ZALA is completely healed now! yeah!! praise jesus !! thank u Mr ERIC tan. hehe.. thanks! so happy!

emily huishi and i were in the libary today talking rubbish and we took photos. haha... i guess thats abt it. we actually planned what to wear the next day ! haha... emily calls it hot skirts... well is just skirts to me. haha.

I AM GOING FOR CANOE POLO TRG 1! tmr.... frankly speaking... i feel so lazy that i don't wanna go. but i am not going to let the laziness eat me up! i am going to go for trg 1 and see how it is. if i enjoy and i like it, i might go on with it but if i don't i'll go for dance! we'll seee...

super long day tmr! blessed blessed and favoured favoured!!

2006-04-24T05:54:00.000-07:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! hehe... yes! is the first day of school once again! Every new start is just so different from the previous one. when i first entered secondary school i was complete blur and afraid!!! i heard abt how AH bengs would beat up ppl and how AH lians are just pure bitches! haha.. i was scared! i have no idea what to expect and i had no friends with me at all. of coz... all that wasn't a problem after a while.

this time.. is different. i went to sch knowing what to expect and trusting JESUS i am in good hands. this time round i wasn't afraid i was more confident knowing that there is nothing to prove of show. i went in... with my standard messy hair and guess what? i met this girl from my sch who was actually my senior in sch! haha... so we started talking and she was actually the only one i talked to. i am shy alright! so stop thinking that i can hit a conversation with the whole world! haha....during the 2nd day of orientation, i got to know more ppl and now that sch has offically start, we start to talk to each other ( classmates) more and more naturally now. haha

when to service my laptop today and now its half healed! haha... u know i would really like to thank the man who0 serviced my laptop today! he was so patient with me and he was so willing to help! his name is ERIC TAN! haha... thanks so much MR eric tan. hehe... i realised if another someone were to be the one dealing with my laptop, i would most prob get a lecture for reformatting my laptop any-o-how. hehe... thank u !!

let me tell u more abt my classmates or rather those whose names i remember. huishi is the girl from phs too! Phs rocks big time! oh.. huishi is really nice! she offers tissue half the time and she waits for me everytime i am delaTE or LATE. hahaa... thanks!
next is emily, she is the girl who loves to cheer! haha.. well i hope she gets into magnum. haha everytime she smiles or laugh her nose creases upwards too! just like mine when i break into my hystercial laughter. hahaa... and... her com is the only one working today ! haha...
next is samuel. he is fair and holds a map! haha...the those of him having a map and being so fair tickles me! hahaha.. well he is quite an eye candy but thats abt it. he is emily's secondary schmate!
next in line is michale.he is another fair like one kind guy and he is so tall that he looks like a flagpole with eyes nose and a mouth! haha... he can be quite fun i guess... oh well is just the first day of sch!

i believe is great days ahead! i pray that i will remember all the password and user name and all the url and website i need! amen!!

2006-04-19T10:31:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA MY DAY IS SO FUN TODAY!

met ming hui, kai yan and lydia for lunch at TOA PAYOH hdb hub! so near my house!!! hahaha.. so happy! met them and we talked about this common problem we have about not liking to hang out with ppl we don't like yet we are forced. so silly.

after that lydia had to go back to work. so kaiyan ming hui and me met shijie and soon sean tan and we were at mac chilling but once the sun shine in , we left for the libary and we stayed there for the next 2 to 3 hours or more!! haha... libary is so fun! oh and i had my dental appointment. the doc. said " i got a detach gum which will soon grow back and i'll be fine." ok.

i like the libary, there is so much fun in there! yan and me were like looking at mags and we picked our wedding dresses and shoes and the cakes! haha.. i read TWITS ! haha... super funny!!! after reading i had all these weird cheeky ideas floating in my mind. haha i told kaiyan abt my evil plan against her. haha she said" lynn, ok. thank u jesus u never do it if not i will kill u." hahahaha

after that... we met lydia and ming hui left for her fencing. so cool! oh! kaiyan showed me this really good book called " because daddy loves u" is super good! every girl wants it. is like after one whole long day of work and more work, and it bedtime, daddy could say" goodnite" or see u tmr or " sleepnite" but he doesn't he said" i love u" how sweet is that! the whole book is all about daddy could do things another way which u may not feel much love but daddy doesn't! he does the way which makes u feel MOST LOVE. after reading the book, i just felt so love by daddy god.

after that... we went bishan J8 for dinner at yoshinoya!! heehheh. then we had haagen daz and we had a great laugh over there! GOD KNOWS WHAT WE ARE LAUGHING ABOUT!?

love them so much!

2006-04-18T09:45:00.000-07:00

just finished watching "MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA". not a bad show but its not super good either. the 3 main geishas were great! i love their hair! no matter messy, let down or neat they looked superb! i think ken watatnabe is quite charming. storyline.... i am not too sure it feels all over the place! oh well... the kimonos were beautiful! i would love to own one too. i want my to made of the special silk with my initial on.

my today felt light and breezy yet heavy hearted at certain moments. i was chatting with lydia today but i was restless. i wanted to type my proposal but i had no discipline. i felt sleepy even thought i woke at at 1pm. sleepy yet couldn't take afternoon naps. it made my heart pumped one beat faster and it made my mind dead.

i wanted sth... yet i couldn't remember. sth felt important but i couldn't picture what was it. i lost it completely and my heart just sank. i am not sad i just feel heavy... like every breath is a breath of stone. every breath has its weight and it wasn't good for my health. i don't know why but pastor lian came to my mind and i had an urge to interview her. i mean.. how weird can this get? -------------THIS WEIRD.

i guess is pms. what about u?

2006-04-11T05:32:00.000-07:00

hello,

i've got a new keyboard and a new mouse!! hahah now my pc feels new! brand new! i love my flat screen hp pc! first its from my aunty nancy next it has this firm and "DON'T MESS WITH ME" image. haha that is y i love it! hehe... my keyboard was down the past week and the mouse was cranky and they are all new now!!! the feeling of new and working is fantastic!!

the feeling of new is good. sometimes the feeling of old feels sexy too. i don't know. i always thought the olden days are fun and sexy when men wore tuxedo and ladies wore sexy high cut skirts! hahahah oh.... i love those tall high caps and the black stick! hahaha...

oh! i think it was last sat, my dad's friend aunty lynn bought me a puma bag! haha... it was really out of the blue and i needed a bag! hahah although the bag looks a little cheesey, how bad can it go on me? hahahaha whatever it is... i shall give thanks! hehe...

next, my aunty nancy's friend is selling channel watches and the friend gave my aunty 2 channel watches! haha.. one white and one black. the black watch has diamonds surrounding it and its the most * BLINK BLINK * item i've ever had! hehehe
the past part is my aunty can't fit into those watches and so its mine now!! hahaha

hahaha so happy!
2 new watches
1 new bag
1 new keyboard
1 new mouse
1 new handphone
soon my new laptop! hehehe

i finally get to trained yesterday! hehe.. it was good and i had fun! well praise jesus. jesus u r seriously my everything.

lynn kok
dance like this.

2006-04-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

i just typed this long and fruitful entry and its all gone. ok nvm. point form now ok.
- woke up 3pm
- did time line for dare event
- felt that bed is half my heaven
- submit all forms to ngee ann poly
- feels really good when i get things done!
- i felt so productive today(haha)
- aunt got me a hp. nokia 6020
- motorola is just not the brand for me
- nokia die hard fan
- went to trade in my hp at this shop name ROBERT.
- salesman knows my aunt and he is one funny guy. haha
- he is this typical cheena good but cheeky guy
- i am no cheeky girl.
- no one wants my phone because is that bad. if u know the state of my phone u will understand. is like even if u leave it on the table, the cleaner will simple take n throw it in the bin.
- he funny guy said " woah! first time see customer's phone like that! how she use one?? *laugh laugh laugh* si bei cute leh. still got sticker! woah piang ! * laugh laugh laugh* " PLS DON'T BRING ANYMORE CHOCOLATE HERE OK.
- i just laughed
- ate my favourite ice-cream LIME SHERBERT and feel happy.
-before i got the phone, i felt blurr and confused and i prayed in tongues.
-now! i got a phone i like and am happy with.
- JESUS IS REAL! heh.. he is. to me. at least.

JESUS'S GIRL -LYNN KOK-

2006-03-29T07:25:00.000-08:00

hm... i didn't plan to be productive today and i accomplished a few things! haha...
first, i finally made the full payment for my laptop and i am so excited !!! within 7 -10days ATHRUN and ZALA will come knocking my at fire proof brown door. hehe... btw Athrun is the name for my laptop and ZALA is the name for the mouse. hehe...

second, i watched 2 more vcds of "da chang jin" and its great great great!! this story is getting more n more exciting and right now every part of the show becomes the climax! every word spoken seeems so important now and every actions mean a thousand words. FANTASTIC!

thirdly, i met coach hee jhun,ernie, evan,dion,dora,yixin and jong today! a few of us when techman to check out some books and then we went to this coffee shop name SENG HUAT for dinner! the mince pork noodles there is yummlicious!!! oh its really famous actually. hehe... it tasted so good! and 200 bonus points when u are hungry! hahaha its already 150 points when u first eat it but 200 more when u are hungry. hehe... after that evan and i found is really cool cafe which is at purvis st and we made a promise to visit that place after school one day! hehe... its called MS CLARITY CAFE! oh... bet u have no idea about it! haha..

fourth, i am so E-X-C-I-T-E-D !!!! HAHAHA... really.. oh i tried the toast bread that pastor has been talking about! haha.. is truly yummy! this aunty in pink shirt loves us!! hahaha.. she kept talking to us and we love her too! she has this winning smile everytime she looks at us. of coz we gave her our winning smile in return! * winning smile*

now... i am home and it feels so great! how does it feel when all ur secrets are let out on national tv? ALL UR FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE WATCHING IT AND THEY SIMPLY KNOW IS U! what the exact feeling??? it really makes me wonder... i am so sure its more than just embarrassment. will ur face go flamming hot? will ur ears turn red? will u have weak knees? will ur hands be sweaty? or will u be so cool and calm and say " this is surely not me because there are thousand and one girl- on -the- street who does the exact same things and have the exact same experience" walked off after that. hmm.....

i am so satisfied right now. THANK U KING OF KINGS. ALL HONOUR AND GLORY TO U.

2006-03-28T07:09:00.000-08:00

i have been missing my deep sleep so much. not that i have not been sleeping but i miss that deep sleep which is so sweet and it makes me feel like a princess on the bed.

now, i'll sleep for a few hours and i am awaken but ring tones and sometimes my grandma's voice or any voices. i am not awaken so easily in the past, i can sleep even with an earthquake in the past but now i just can't! i really want that sleep back again!!

these few days just ain't my days. i have this " lets accomplish something' feeling tucking in my heart but i just don't see whats there for me to achieve. or rather maybe there is a lot that i can achieve but i am afraid to reach further. i don't know !! i have no idea what is going on in my heart and my mind. there seem to be this wind whirl in me that is driving me up the walls.

everyday i tell myself, ok i'm going to do something so great so great today. i'll be the most productive person on planet earth for this day. Everyday i failed and everyday seems to be wasted and time just passed like nobody's business!! that kind of thought just suck big time.

i know i've got so much to do but i don't seem to be doing them either. i just can't seem to pull myself together. what is happening??? the time of the month has past this shouldn't be the case.

i am fine, i am really fine, fine is not enough for me. i want the spark! i want the exciting i want the adventureous and i want the greatness the fun and the hip! Fine to me is boring, i want more than that! so much more. where has that drive and that fantastic world go?

ppl don't get me wrong, i am not depress or sad or melancholic. i just wanted more than the natural. The extravangant bubbles surrounding me like how a kid will play during bath! not to mention i really want to shop. i wanna have a day of pure shopping and just spent all i have and start from scratch but i know my dad n mum will so kill me.

guess these are what makes life- LIFE.

still HIS daughter -lynn kok-

2006-03-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

can u keep a secret?

hahaha.... yup! thats the book i am reading, this will be my second time reading it. i like this story very much because its so real!! its more real compared to shopaholic. i still love shopaholic but is just a little different. shopaholic's ending and the way the whole situation is salvaged is very unrealistic. can u keep a secret? is more down to earth like how some parents would compare their child to another better child and how a working adult who owes her dad money wants the promotion so much. simply to prove them wrong. How her determination isn't that determine enough. haha.. yar! how she will try to to capture every opportunity but sometimes things just don't work out and she feels sad. yet in her mind she knows sth good will surely happen. because it cannot be that bad. i would really like to give the pink drink a try. hehe

was talking to coach julian ( a soon married man) he said ' girls should never be a pursuer in the relationship!! " that would simply cheapen a girl. i guess it depends. some girls do it sassy and cool like su qi. some are just digging her own grave. the way a girl says it makes a huge difference although girls should still be more reserve. of coz girls can drop hints no prob but to say it blunt and out right is such a turn off!! haha.. ok at least i feel so.

girls think abt it. what are man known for? EGO? PRIDE? VAIN? IMAGE? HAIR ? whats more? oh!!! how could i miss this one! SEX!
see it girls. this is real. for a man to say " i love u" takes a step of faith and its also a tough nut for them. if a man can't even put himself aside to tell u those 3 words, he don't worth that precious heart of urs. if he thinks that to say those 3 words is such a shame or " un cool " whatever shit the reason can be , he is a jerk whom u won't want to give ur heart to. actually i feel that nowadays only real man find it hard to say those 3 words. many guys can do that now. easily! on their fingertips because they practice it with different gals everytime they change their underwear. how sad. WELL I STILL BELIEVE THAT THERE ARE STILL MANY MORE GOOD GUYS OUT THERE. yeah! don't lose hope girls ( who wants to get married or looking for a life partner).

2006-03-23T06:11:00.000-08:00

i bought a laptop today!!! excited exicted!!!!!!!! hahah yes yes i got a laptop! i am so happy! haha... first i wanna thank GOD! only he knows that i had no money to buy a laptop and my dad n mum were not very keen on getting a lap top for me. $2000 over dollars is a lot of money. my yaya ( grandpa) gave me 1000 bucks and the rest mum and dad share... hehe... i am very thankful for this laptop! i'll name it ATHRUN and the mouse ZALA! hehe...

i am so happy!! THANK U JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daughter of the most high -lynn

2006-03-22T06:21:00.000-08:00

went shopping with chewy today! we were suppose to chill and not shop but we ended up shopping and watching a movie ! haha... i bought a few things today! i got 1. puma case 2.necklace 3. nail polish 4. ballet shoe yup think thats all.... and watched NANNY MC.PEE! hehe.. quite a good show. i liked it! and chewy too!!

we had so much fun watching nanny mc. pee! she is so power !! haha.. i like simon in the show. he is a smart boy! i like katherine too! heehe.. i like nanny mc.pee! ;)

after walking ard shopping and all, nite falls... we were wondering where to go and both of us got a little high and we went shopping at zara!! WINDOW SHOP. I love this new season's clothes!! excellent excellent!!!

i want this top so much! this $59 bucks top, so nice is black. is very simple but it feels so good! i have no idea how to explain it.

i want all the tee shirts there is at zara

i also want all the 3 quart pants or the shorts at zara.

hm.... i am a rich girl!

2006-03-19T06:13:00.000-08:00

woah! its been a long time since i last blogged. haha... alrite... where shall i start?

HERE! -----> server's night was a success and i want to thank god for it. No one knows the hectic and the lost and the mess we were in as a committee, only jesus knows and he saw it and he came into the mess and filled up all the loopholes and made the event beautiful. I dare say that this event is divine.

next! is work. yes i like HATC and i am with them. i really really hate the admin and the excel and the standing ard and do nothing! i wanna train! i want to be a trainer! not for the pay not for fame but for what i feel i can do! i am not being proud here i just felt that standing ard and do nothing at most just some admin and i get paid is not to my liking. i don't enjoy that. i want to do something more productive more omph more live than just standing ard! JESUS U KNOW WHATS BEST. I WILL LISTEN TO UR BEST.

next! ok i am catching this korean show called " da chang jin" and this is an excellent show!!! hahaha i love it to the max! its so cool so much content so much climax and the story line is so well written. every single cast is so well chosen and the make up is BEST! hahaha.. not just the make up and the cast the food that they present to the king is ONE KIND! if u r a woman as in real woman u will love this show. is so womanly and woman is the hero of the show. watch it girls!

next! what else? oh poly.....poly poly poly is not funny is a N.A.P! oh.. whatever it suppose to mean. anyway i am going to get my laptop real soon! and i am so excited. DADDY GOD, I KNOW I AM BLESSED SO BLESSED TO HAVE U. just to have u, i am satisfied. all is in good hands----- ur hands. i can hold on to my father's word.

yup! thats all... i have not been shopping! and i really wanna shop! i wanna go bugis and get my nails done and have some fun! hehe

2006-03-07T07:45:00.000-08:00

slept till 3pm! hahaha !! love it!

did my evs report
watched campus superstar again.
ate congee
bored for 30mins
prayed in tongues
went toa payoh central with aunty
bought 3 pink panter boxers and 3 panties
bought lipgloss and honeywood blusher
received 2 calls from high achievers
TMR I AM GOING TO THE ZOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! excited!! * free*

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ i slept in bus 105 yesterday on my way home and i had a bad dream!! i woke up with a shocked and the guy sitting beside me got a shocked too!! hahaha... so funny! i laughed to myself when after i got off the bus. HAHAHAH

2006-03-05T09:44:00.000-08:00

i got into my 11th choice. haha... engineering. that word just sounds so strange to me. oh well... i am sure to appeal for some other courses before giving it up. for the past few weeks i felt like i just lived in fear worry and a little tear. NOT ANYMORE. i am not going to live that life anymore. i've learn to just trust god and ONLY BELIEVE.

Ps lian hugged me and said " don't u dare worry girl" to me that moment i just woke up like... hey! if god is for me who can be agaisnt me? and whats more i am his child. it griefs a fathers heart to watch his children worry. i am not going to worry anymore instead i'll hold on to the word of god and what my heavenly fathers says and run with it.

i want my life to be such a glorious one that all could see the source of strength. LORD, THANK U. THANK U FOR LOVING ME AND THANK YOU FOR THE GOOD PLANS U HAVE FOR ME ALWAYS. U MAKE MY LIFE GREAT.

i am so excited!

2006-02-28T07:52:00.000-08:00

i had the weirdest dream last last last night!!!

i dreamt that i was in a thai school in thailand. the thai school looks the same as my primary school!! freaky freaky!! haha the whole school was having recess time i think. i was at the parade square with a few of my friends when suddenly this female teacher ran out and she shouted " leave the school quick! or be dead" my friend took my hand and told me to run! deep down in me i didn't want to run. i was too curious and so i stayed with another friend and i woke up! hahaha...

it was quite eerie like the whole dream was a little scary. HAHA.. thank god i woke up and thank god its only a dream!

2006-02-27T10:14:00.000-08:00

when ghim moh for facilitation today. not bad at all!! i had fun great fun! oh... i love the old school feel that reminds me so much of my primary sch days! hahaha.. the gates i used to climb, the fence i used to cut and the toliets i used to hide in when i was late! those good old days memories. Primary school days are just one of a kind. its truly carefree and its silly! i love silly moments because they bring joy! well... sometimes... embarrassment. SO WHAT? it adds so much colour to ur day and ur life. haha...

if i can turn back time... i will want to go back to..... 7 years old. i want to learn all over again and explore the beauty of education in a brand new way. i wanna have fun and be so free so free once more! from there... i'll write a new story of my whole life and make it even better than now. not that i don't like my life now... if i can re-write it, i want to do away with some stuff. well.... i think my life now is interesting because i am doing things i've never done before. i am working with ppl i never work before. and i am seeing things i've never seen before. i guess that is the fun about life.

Right now when i looked back at the things i have done, i laughed and thank god for a special route he have for me. no one has my route. its tough sometimes... but still i want to explore the greatness the beauty and the joy on this planet earth especially when my prince is with me. there is really nothing to fear although sometimes i still do. SO WHAT????? when i have him, i have it all.

life is road i wanna keep going
love is a river i wanna keep flowing
life is a road now and forever
wonderful journey.

make ur life a beautiful one today! haha....

2006-02-26T05:48:00.000-08:00

i lost my voice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it hurts sometimes! (throat) i wanna sing again i really wanna sing !! when my voice is back i will sing, not just sing but sing with so much more!

2006-02-23T08:15:00.000-08:00

We were strangers, Starting out on a journey.Never dreaming what we'd have to go through.Now here we are. I'm suddenly standing at the begining with you.
No one told me I was going to find you. Unexpected what you did to my heart. When I lost hope you were there to remind me. This is the start.
And life is a road and I wanna to keep going,love is a river I wanna keep flowing,life is a road Now and forever.Wonderful journey.
I'll be there when the world stops turning,I'll be there when the storm is through,In the end I wanna be standing.At the beginning with you.
We were strangers on a crazy adventure.Never dreaming how are our dreams will come true. Now here we stand Unafraid of the future.At the begining with you.
And life is a road and I wanna to keep going,love is a river I wanna keep flowing,life is a road Now and forever.Wonderful journey.
I'll be there when the world stops turning,I'll be there when the storm is through,In the end I wanna be standing.At the beginning with you.
Knew there was somebody somewhere.Like me alone in the dark. Now I know my dream will live on. I've been waiting so long.Nothing's gonna tear us apart.
And life is a road and I wanna keep going,Love is a river and I want to keep flowing,Life is a road now and forever.Wonderful journey.
I'll be there when the world stops turning,I'll be there when the storm is through,In the end I wanna be standing.At the beginning with you.
And life is a road and I wanna keep going,Love is a river and I want to keep flowing, life is a road now and forever.Starting out on a journey!Life is a road and I wanna keep going,Love is a river and I want to keep going, In the end I wanna to be standing at the begining........With you.

i'll tell this to my prince.

2006-02-22T05:11:00.000-08:00

The girl that cried last night

There once lived a girl name Lorine. She lives in the provinces of china with her parents and her grandparents. Her dad is jobless and therefore her family depended very much on her mother. Even so, her mother only takes home $500/mthand is surely never enough.Lorine lived with a poverty mind set since the day she was born. She had never experience the sense of generosity or rather she does not know the word at all.

Lorine’s family background has forbidden her of a promising future. She had grea dreams and she strives for the very best that she can. She never gets what’s labeled best. Her life is all about the lack and no one knows the nightmare she has and the pain she has went through as a young girl.

Lorine once said this” is ok if family is poor but is not ok where there is no love” that statement made me wonder, does that mean she is not receiving the love that she expects from her family? Is she very depriving of family’s love? Doesn’t her dad approves her? No one truly knows her life because she keeps everything to herself. She always appears so strong in front of her friends but she cries every night to sleep. Even so, she never fails to brighten someone’s day with her winning smile. That winning smile could never save her.

When lorine was in her teenage years, she tried to love her parents and she did. She thought about her parents every time she is out late but her parents never knew that part of her.. Lorine doesn’t like to talk much about her family because it’s a place where she is hurt most. She loves her dad so much that every word her dad says is like a decreed of a king but as lorine learn about freedom and free will she started to dislike her father. At times she do reflect on her own actions but even so she was never apologetic about it. For a child to be what she is, comes from her parents. That is the reason why she was never sorry about what she has done unless she truly knows is her wrongdoing

Lorine has always dislike her mother because her mother doesn’t bother. She despised her mother because she did not bring lorine up properly. She has never taught lorine how to dress up or how to put on make up or how should a lady carry herself. All that lorine learnt on her own and flaws were everywhere. Lorine blames her mother for not being responsible to her. In her deepest moment lorine always has a grudge towards her irresponsible parents for having her but never there for her. She doesn’t know the meaning of family and there she went searching. She has no idea what does love means and there again she searched. She searched and she searched but she could never find the perfect answer to all her questions,

The day she stops searching was the day she left this world.21-sept-1892was the day lorine ended her adventure on this world. She left this world with these words” life can only be beautiful unless you are already contended with simple things like the sunshine and the rain.

Story written by ; Ganson Cills Luke

GOT TO CHANCE ABOUT THIS STORY WHEN I WAS BORED AND I TYPED 21 SEPT ON YAHOO. HAHAHA WONDER IS THIS STORY FOR REAL. IF IT IS.... IS REALLY QUITE SAD. POOR LORINE. THE TITLE FEELS A LITTLE TOO CLICHE.

2006-02-21T05:43:00.000-08:00

its been a long long time since i fell ill. was down with a fever yesterday night. i really wonder why of all times now! i was suppose to have an event with camp HA on wednesday and now i can't go. i am so sorry jeremy, to let u know so last min instead of getting angry at me u told me to rest well. thanks so much for extending grace to me. thanks a lot! i really appreciate it.

took 2 pand na do and is of the wrong time. haha i took the one that says relief cold. i am down with a fever not a cold. oh well... i keep seeing my fever and my weak body on jesus on that cross. Actually it helps... is not like... oh u see and then the pain is gone straight away... but is like when u see ur pain, illness upon a man who took it for u, there is this relief first inside then the outside. i suddenly understand what pastor really meant when he said SEE UR PAIN UPON THE MAN WHO TOOK IT FOR U UPON THE CROSS. although my fever wasn't healed right away but i learn an important truth that will take me a long way.

this whole afternoon i was feeling so weak and i slept practically the whole day! but now, i am feeling so much better... more alive now! hahaha...thank u lord. thank u jesus for the cross... i am sure it wasn't easy for u up there jesus. i really wonder what strength and what courage was that which held u there for so long. then i realised, must be LOVE. The strongest love ever! The love u felt for me, the love u have towards me held u there for a long long time. thank u lord. thank you. thank you for loving me and u gave me a love story of my own. my very own love story to tell to share to have and to own. i'll call it " The prince who truly loves me"

The prince who truly loves lynn-

2006-02-19T10:22:00.000-08:00

my day today was fine. is a sunny sunday with some fun here and there. today's service was really great. i am indeed so pure so special so different from the others. simply becoz my king sees me as one and my king calls me his princess his daughter. i remembered there was once i was so jealous about this person and i was upset becoz i envied someone not knowing how special i already am and i teared. As i teared, i heard this voice so calm so loving telling me " hey girl, u are my princess of all the princesses" there and then i teared even more. This time, it was tears of joy. i was so glad so happy so thrilled to know that the king calls me his princess. His girl. u know how special are these words to a girl? They are not just words they are strength and security to her. These words cannot come from any man except the king himself speaks. Precious.

Had a great dinner at lydia's place and it was yummy! The mushrooms were so great that i have to give it a two thumbs up for johnny! hahaha... really! but this shijie is missing out on the mushrooms !! hahaha.... we watched 13 going on 30!!! hahaha.. excellent show for an excellent time of thriller. hahah... we had great fun together! we are family!! hahaha kaiyan johnny lydia shijie and me! heheh... we are all great together!

yesterday's match!!! LIVERPOOL WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BECOZ MY JESUS LOVES ME.

2006-02-18T08:39:00.000-08:00

finally a happy day! for the past whole one week is just bad bad bad and sad sad sad and so i cry cry cry! hahah really... it was a horrible week. i never had such horrible days before. in the past... i might feel sad or just "not right" for a a day or 2 and i'll be fine after that but the past few weeks i am just horrible! thank god is now over!

i really praise god for godly friends who never give up on me and always there for me. is really great to have friends who i can relay on when i am down. these people have never fail to see the best in me and calling forth wats best in my life. i am just very thankful for them and thankful to god for placing them in my paths.

i had so much fun today! haha... ok... i forgot all abt leadership trg today!! that is actually quite a terrible start for the day. oh well.. HE never gives up. i went for DARE GROUP and it was great! in all things elisha threw in the fine flour. in all things he place JESUS in the situation and it will surely be good. the game is not over until jesus is being glorified. that is one thing i learn and i will want it to be this way.

yesh! i bought 3 bras today! blue pink and orange! hahaha.. so happy!

2006-02-14T23:41:00.000-08:00

so upset. so upset! these few days are just not my days.... it hasn't been easy at all. i did so badly for my o levels that i couldn't believe it! i got a 7 for english and a 5 for my humans... wth!!! i was so sad so angry and so disapointed. i cried for 2 days straight and my eyes were so puffy that i couldn't see properly. even till now i am still very upset. its so hard for me calm myself down and say things like oh... special ppl have special journey. what the shit? is so tough, so tough. i've never felt so hurt so upset before. is not just abt the results. for me to be so upset is because i have once placed hope and expectation upon something which is not suppose to fail. or rather people raise my hope so high and when it falls it falls with an impact so huge it crashed me. hahaha so drama mama right... oh well.. it is.

i cried so hard until i couldn't breathe one time. so painful know. everything down just seems to bad. i really wonder when will the sunny day come again? i am feeling so crashed like dreams have been dashed. i am feeling stressful because i have a pair of eyes that sometimes love and sometimes scream in my house. so scary ok. the fear of picking up her calls and the fear of knowing she is going to scream scares the hell out of me. is because u never know when the screams are coming or when the angry tears start flowing and u can't breathe. yes sometimes those eyes are of love but... the love don't seem to last very long these few days.

i know i shouldn't be afraid of such things but... i am afraid. i myself don't want to feel this way... but i can't help it. i really cannot! i tried and i tried and i tried i ended up crying n crying n crying.... so hard ok. so hard. i just wanna quit. i cannot be bothered wat determination or winning attitudes and wat the shit! is not easy is no easy way out is tough so tough i almost jumped. haha.. then again i know i won't becoz i am scared. someother ways might work...?

if u read this page of my blog, pls don't telll me u read it. its suppose to be confidential.

2006-02-09T07:29:00.000-08:00

hahaha... lets type in large size today! hahaha

woke up early to work. had facilitaton to do today... at deyi sec. haha that jailhoues we phs students always think. oh well... their students are not bad la... they have the funky the nutty and the nerdy. they are quite a fun batch of students. wat else to say??? oh their students there wants to kill the teachers. hahaha serious! haha i really pity the teachers... but sometimes the students too.. they wrote things like.. teacher despies us and so on... hm.... guess teachers should do the soft approach.

we had lunch and andy was very surprised by the amt i can eat. haha i was hungry like hungry hungry, very very, hungry very, very hungry... and the rest was history. hahaha...

hang out with giddy and we talked abt dionna wee yi ling oh well.. she is our common friend and we both have common thoughts abt her. haha it was funny.

light blinking, cameras rolling and ACTION!
welcome to lynnie sassy me dancing. this blogsite is about this girl who lives her life with an answer. she has an answer to her life that not many has, she knows her success is sealed and she knows her life is like a fairytale being seen. her life is yet to be told. her past was ugly her present is wavy but her future is surely bright. wanna know her secret? it got to be the man who made her. find the man who made u and u will live ur life like never before. THE MAN WHO MADE HER.

thank you for watching LYNNIESASSYMEDANCING on channel DARE TO DREAM. see u again! same time same channel,

CUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-03T09:26:00.000-08:00

i wanna sleep but i can't! i hate it when someone come from behind and stepped on ur slippers and never say SORRY. i met an idiot like that yesterday! he stepped on my left slipper and i said " ouch!! " then he stepped on my right and walked away. i said " that idiot" .

went ngee ann poly open hse with evan today! made her wait for an hour. so sorry babe. we had fun.. saw half the world there. the DANCE SPORTS there is horrible for their salsa. their costume is horrible is cheena! so cheena it shows! so ugly. the steps were fine... but the dancers were SICK. ok... guess i shall stop before i get sued. i mean.. the groove, the style the class is all not there. thats bad. and evan felt so too. haha.. gross.

then came the hip hop. they were much better but not captivating enough. the stuns were stunning but it doesn't keep one watching with 100% attention. its very dry after a while. the lady dancing with 4 other guys was great! but she gave me the impression of rough and tough feeling which i don't like esp when it comes from a female dancer. to me female dancer should always leave one with a special impression like classy, style, groovy, coolness and dignity. there was one guy whom evan thot was quite cute. to me.. he was a little too tall for breakdancing and he looked out of the way. haha... funny.

the most important thing is that when a person dance, the person should dance from inside out.

2006-02-02T09:59:00.000-08:00

its a happy day today! very very fun!! very happy !! very exciting! alrite let me start.

woke at ard...1pm? haha today is abit eariler. woke up and my dad is so nice!! she made youg tou fou for me to eat!! thanks dad. i appreciate it very much. then this uncle gary came to my house don't know for wat reason. oh well.. probably came to company my dad. haha... they looked really cute sitting together reading the newspaper. haha... while i bathe and get prepared to meet kaiyan for some SHOES shopping time! haha...

met kaiyan at far east and we started shopping for shoes!!!!!!!!! yes shoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kaiyan and me went trendy zone and that was took up 1/2 of our shopping trip already. alright let me explain. kaiyan went in with an objective, while i went in with nothing. so... kaiyan showed me the shoe that she wanted to buy the other day and i tried on to this white gloss flats and i liked it. besides trying on to the white pair of flats... kaiyan tried this glossy brown pointed with ribbon. that pair is very classic it makes ur feet looks older yet with class. next we this pair of purple point with ribbon and bronze lining which kaiyan loves!!! hahaha.. this pair suits kaiyan more than it suits me. and that pair is haunting her. then we saw 2 pairs of white flats under the $15.90 corner and kaiyan tried them on. hm... its not too bad for a $15.90 but is not up to expectations. then i saw my "love at first sight" this creamy dark pink velevt heels with brown ribbon. i tried it one and it made my feet looked so danity and my feet was the prettiest for that moment. my feet was slim and slender and the colour suits my feet tone so well that its almost perfect. kaiyan blessed me with that pair of shoe i like. thanks so much kaiyan for getting me my " love at first sight" . for kaiyan... she bought herself a glimmer champang coloured pair of heels with an open gap at the side which adds so much style and attitude to her feet. that pair of heels made her feet looked beautiful.

yup! thats our shoe story. then we went to coffee club at taka to meet kaijin. she bought us all a drink! i drank ice passion tea with ice-cream. yummy yummy! hahaa... parry met up with us and we went down to suntec together.

we were in 4thfloor office and someone came out from no where and was so rude! that idiot never even say HI! i mean... is so rude! like where on god's green earth is ur manners idiot!? oh well... can't be bothered. then evan shirmain erine and i went down to get cookies and shirmain and me met our common friend !! haha... it was quite funny actually. haha funny moment like these are just as precious as diamonds....

went back and deacon was there and after some powerful sharing we proceed on with our LASER QUEST! haha.. its an awesome game! hahaha love it!! love it! its like a real life war game. we all have a gun and a head set. everytime u are shot ur head set will show. the gun is a laser gun. no bullets involve. haha.. really fun! hahaha ur head set will show how many lives u still have left. haha... super duper fun i love it! i've not played anything as fun as this before! love deacon.

so excited! so loved! so favoured! wats more the lord is with lynn.

2006-02-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

hm..... wat abt today? let me see... it feels as if lots have happened but when i come to think of it.. actually not much. i woke up at 3.3opm today. when i told gideon that, he looked a little shocked and angry. hahaha he was like huh? he told me she slept at 4pm but woke up at 9am. hahaha i was thinking... thats UR BUSINESS! hahaha he was so proud when he said " i woke up to exercise!" haha... i was like... ok.. i don't need to exercise. oh well.. i really wish that there will be a sleeping competition and i will surely win! hahaha wishing and hoping and wishing and hoping............

went to meet lydia c.yimei dion and gideon at marina south mrt to do some recee again. haha it was not bad. nothing much to talk abt. then dion told me abt some camp ha thing... hm... i think shila will be in and yes i will be going too! hahaha exicted. next week of mine is so pack! i like it! haha... for this week is oso quite pack. tmr i am going shopping with kaiyan and then for dinner and stuff...
hehehe
whoohoo!

every girl should have their first love with a king.... then a prince.

2006-01-30T05:22:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL OF U OUT THERE!!!!!!!

cny is always well known for its goodies and ANG BAOS! hahaha... on cny's eve, i had my reunion dinner and yup it was good! hahah.. good food and good family time! awesome awesome! lord u bless them! amen. after that i went changi airport to play catching! hahaha... it was alright la. wasn't very fun. is like... because i am bored so to went to find somethings to occupy myself with. haha yup! that was wat i found. not very wise huh?

on chu yi, i slept till say... 1.30pm? and my neighboure came into my bedroom and passed me an ang bao!!!! i was like.... hm............ is this a dream or what? haha... someone giving me an ang bao when i was still asleep. haha... quite funny at that very moment. hahahah
after that my family were guessing whether will anyone come. before we could actually think about that question, relatives from my yeye side came. we call them lok some ( 6th aunt) in canto. haha yup! they arrived and yes! ang baos! their whole family came!!!! that means... there is abt 10 ppl come in one shot! haha.. one of her son has quite a nice build too! haha... next came my cousins darren and shawn. haha.. welcome welcome! hahaha... we chatted and talked abt school and stuff... hahaha.. normal topic. then came my UNCLE kiang! the man who knows all his gambling tricks! haha and then UNCLE SAM! HAHAHA.... love my uncle sam! he is so funny and so generous! haha... erm...... after all that hive! i went church for another hive! haha.... service was great! simple truth yet powerful! haha... love pastor prince!

then is now. today. hm..... i woke up with one ang bao again! haha.. then went over to my maternal side. ok... i only go n visit them once a year! hahaha but i do love them very much! met my ah yi ( mum's sis) and met my cousins!!!!!!!!!! finally after so long! hahaha.. i used to play with them when i was younger! hahaha... we used to meet up every week at ah ma's house and well go to the near by playground to play! not only that, we'll plan on how to mess ah ma's hse up! hahahha so funny right? haha... we will drop out bowl purposely or spill our drinks on purpose! hahaha.. so fun! i am always the only girl playing with them thats becoz same generation. yup! precious memories that got refreshed just today. the elder son now is quite cute! haha.... the other 2.......... ok.
next, went to my ah ma's house. my ah ma is bed-ridden and i've not seen her since GOD KNOWS WHEN! HAHA... really... when i saw her, i feel so much for her. she looked at me with such intencity and i could feel this burning sensation deep down in my heart. i knew i was going to tear any time. i held back as much as i could. thank god we had to leave after a short while and so.. i left with my parents. i was still feeling that buring sensation and it was growing stronger and stronger. i was in deep thought about the my childhood days. when she would bring me to the near by "shopping area" to buy things i want. haha... miss it so much.
i really want her to know jesus but i got no courage to say anything to her.

my day today was great! it ended nicely. some of my cousins came and we went to flip through our baby pictures and the younger days! hahaha... it was so fun !!! i got really cute pictures of myself! hahaha... if i can have one wish i wish to live again. to start all over again.

great day! i wanna watch movie! anyone? haha...

2006-01-27T10:08:00.000-08:00

i finally realised one thing about dancing!! this is magical!! is ok if u don't know how to dance and is also ok if u cannot dance ! dancing is not about how well u shake or how well u can seduce. dancing is about u. dancing is a language spoken with complete expression. dancing is all about THE MOMENT. how well u can capture the moment is another story all together. DANCING is truly about the moment that belongs to u. A moment of passion, dreams fufilled and even love. is really ok if u can't dance like britney or rain. is perfectly ok! a person can know nuts about dancing but yet capture the moment of life! and that would be the best dance ever! it might even be better than a dance done by britney! is ok if u look stiff , that stiffness can be shaken and u might look cute! and who knows... that might be the best dance seen ever! that is real and orginal! no one can look stiff the way u do and u ruled it all. that can be a dance. dancing is not just movements... its all abt the heart the eyes the style the class and YOU!

went town today and i saw xia xue (wendy) she is really short fat and ugly. really! haha... ok lynn don't be mean! but........ i am sorry that she is so ugly. i am not saying that i am damm pretty but i think for the very least.. i have a better figure than she has! hahaha oh well.... god made us all different and i thank god i am not her.

2006-01-26T09:31:00.000-08:00

i miss brandon. brandon wong. miss those days where i laughed until i cry with happiness. haha.. really! i miss those days when i laugh inside out. my laughter don't sound drunk, it sounds like a happy melody.

2 days ago, i heard my own laughter... it felt diltuted. it felt drunk. it left like the meaning of laughter has long gone. when i laughed that day... i felt drunk thats because i am not laughing happily... i felt as if i was crying behide all that laughter. that night i had a nightmare. i marry someone i hate. i woke up with so much fear in me. i woke up crying. so scary!

i just read yarui's blog... i am so happy for her. so glad that she is happy and she is so full of the strength and hope. yarui don't lose sight ok. haha love her so much. she made me realised the simplicity of life. that was sth i know long ago but i lost it. i am trying to find it back again...

my dad scolded me today for having a untidy room and being lazy. i hate sweeping the floor and ironing and wat so ever! i just hate it. i surely have a maid in the future and will not lift a finger to do my house chores! no way! i just hate it. unless i feel like doing. if not, NO WAY! after he scoled me, i had a silly thot. and that was to run away from home openly and rent a one room flat! haha its only $45 a month! i mean... c'mon i can work! hahaha i can own a house! hahaha that thot got me excited! 18yrs old and i got a house to myself! ITS PARTY TIME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... ok it was only a thot.

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2006-01-24T10:23:00.000-08:00

arg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so angry so pissed off and i am just not too happy. i mean wats sup man? i am suppose to be happy and i am suppose to feel great! isn't that the only way? y am i going through this shit? I WANT ICE-CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no amount of ice-cream can cure me now. i just need a released. my life is great and i am doing well be it is finances or work or friends or events or projects...etc i am all great! or rather i am happy with all that i am doing. BUT i just can't understand one thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so irriated by this. there is only one issue in my life now and that is that i not very glad with **************. not happy about everything about this piece of shit! u think is a person? so be it. if u think this is a dog? most likely. watever it is i cannot say this out on my blog because there are ppl whom i don't really like reads. this is personal so yar. so sorry friends... if u wanna know can ask me la.

i am so confused so lost and not so happy abt this ****************. it makes me wanna cry with anger, it makes me wanna kill a person and it forces me to eat ice-cream to cool myself down. SHUT UP ! U DON'T UNDERSTAND. U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE TERROR I WENT THROUGH, THE NIGHTMARES I HAD AND WOKE UP WITH TEARS AND THE FRUSTRATION I HAVE EACH TIME IT OCCURS. U R NOT ME AND U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND SO DON'T ACT LIKE U DO AND PUSH ME AWAY. ITS NO SMALL MATTER TO ME. IT MAY BE SMALL TO U BUT IS NOT TO ME! WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT THRESHOLD, Y MUST I BE FORCED IN SUCH A SITUATION? U KNOW HOW PAIN IT HURTS? U KNOW HOW MUCH TEARS I CRIED? DO U KNOW THE TIMES WHEN I AM LOST? AT THE VERY LEAST DO U KNOW IT AFFECTS ME? U DON'T. U NEVER DO. U DO AS U LIKE THINKING EVERYONE IS LIKE U. OH NOT THAT WAY... U DO UR WAY AND NOT CARE FOR ANYONE ELSE. U GRIN WHEN UR FRIENDS ARE HURT, U LAUGHED WHEN THEY ARE INJURED, U STEPPED ON THE OPEN WOUND AND MADE IT WORST! OH U EVIL ONE! PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME. I AM SO AFRAID SO AFRAID SO FEARFUL ONE DAY IT WILL GET ME. I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERYDAY AND I HAD TO FEED MYSELF WITH ICE-CREAM TO COOL MYSELF DOWN.

I AM SO AFRAID SO FEARFUL THAT ONE DAY IT WILL GET TO ME. NEVER PLEASE. NEVER PLEASE. TAKE IT AS I BEG OR I PLEAD. LEAVE ME ALONE AND DON'T LET ME LIVE IN FEAR. I TREMBLE AT THE SIGHT OF U ALTHOUGH I KNOW I WILL FIGHT BACK WITH WHAT LITTLE STRENGTH I HAVE. BUT ONE THING I KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT IF I AM LEFT WITH NO CHOICE BUT TO SEE U INVADE INTO MY LIFE, I WILL RATHER LEAVE THIS WORLD FULL OF DESTINEY AND DREAMS.

2006-01-19T05:40:00.000-08:00

dear diary,
u know, i use to write like that when i was younger. my dairy/journal is something i hold close to and i would talk to it like a friend. now... i missed the point of having a diary/journal. i just typed to vent anger or sometimes even to proof how wonderful my day is. then again i realised that this is something personal although i know people do read but still, its my personal life and so i shall not care wat people think or say because i am accountable for my own life not someone elses.

this week has been quite a hectic and eventful week for me. on monday i went down to H.A.T.C to meet alex and signed on the dotted line. now i am associated to H.A.T.C! haha its quite exciting i must say. this morning i facilitated nanyang primary. the kids are all so adorable! there is this boy i like and his name is euegune. he is cool calm and quiet and shy. his dark eyes showed maturity and his little corner smile to me was heart warming. my trainer was sam, i hope i did a good job in supporting him. i mean, thats my job. haha there is this boy, he game me a yupi green apple sweet before the class starts. haha.. i was very glad and it made me day. there is ang mo guy as well.. he is very smart and he said i looked good. haha when he said that he hurry looked down and shy his way.. hahaha.. in my mind i was thinking... u r so young and there u go telling me i look good. hahaha nutty nutty! hahaa there is this girl name joanne, she very small very tiny but her she matures beyone her age. the way she speaks and behaves impresses me. there is this another girl, she sits by herself and she pays attention and laugh her way when sam cracks a joke or sth. haha she was the only girl who enjoyed it to the fullest i would say. i looked at her and laughed with her. precious precious. they are all so precious to me and to daddy god! mighty champions!

yesterday ( wed) i went to a factory to do CNY hamper with johnny. it was good. in the sense that our meals were all provided!! hahah they are all very nice people. its a family business. i did packing, baskets peeling and some florist stuff, paste stickers and so on so forth. hahaha.. it was not bad. like fun and easy and is relax!
i can go to the fridge to take watever i want, sit down as and went i like. hahaha yar really! dress code was casual! and casual i love! hahaha... shorts and tee shirt! hahaha yup. after that shijie came to fetch us!!! haha thanks man. u r the man. haha... then we went paya lebar mrt to wait for kaiyan and head down to toa payoh market to have our dinner at 10.30pm. hahaha.. yup! it was fun la. i love shijie kaiyan johnny and lydia and ming hui!! hahah we a gang man! love them!!

alrite... i think i am in quite a few committee.. haha well.. grace grace! jesus u r my strength my alll in all. my success my love my life and happiness my joy my everything! u make all things good for me and i am a successful person because GOD IS WITH LYNN! i am so grateful lord. if it wasn't u, i don't think i can make it till today. hahaha great fun! hahaa

oh.. gideon just called me. hahah he seem to be enjoying as well. haha... great! we are all enjoying!! jesus loves me!

2006-01-17T08:29:00.000-08:00

beautiful beautiful my beautiful jesus! praise the lord!

today i was supposed to meet c.hj and many others for hang out but i couldn't be there coz of my cramps! i don't usually have cramps... watssup with today! haha... nvm i am fine! i am healed! stayed home to rest and ate yong tou fou with my dad. hahaha the soup is very nice. oh well... spent time with my dad today.

watched my prince turns to frog show. haha so nice!! really so nice! i still hate his curly hair! hahaha... nvm. i like the way he acts and behave as dang oh! hahaha quite cute at some point of time but not so at many times. haha...

yeah! i finally did my HATC trainer's report! i hope is acceptable. hahaha... its good in jesus name! blind their eyes holy spirit! hahahaha i had fun! i feel so adult... haha doing reports planning programmes thinking abt stuff... taking things into consideration and so on... hahaha...
really.. i felt like i've learnt so much and so much more to learn. excited! very excited.
i am not going to wallow and dwell in misery and self pity anymore. i want and i will stand up strong and glorious becoz my jesus is with me and i am sucessful! amen.

excited excited! tmr i am going to do up hampers with johnny! hahaha yeah yeah! blessed blessed and favoured favoured above all... DADDY LOVES LYNN!

I'LL LIVE BY THE 3 CS! COOL CALM AND DADDY IS IN CONTROL! HEHEHE

daddy's girl.

2006-01-15T07:35:00.000-08:00

bravo!! its been a bravo week for me! hahaha although my com is down and all but still my week was good! hahaha....

i am now with high achievers training consultancy !! yeah its a company. i went down on a thursday to for my interview and at the same time i went to a sch to train. it was my first training! yes yes its was exciting and nerve cracking at the same time! haha no joke. hahaha... i only got to know i'll be training ( being the main speaker) the day before. haha i only got the manual the day before.. so it was like a unexpectable thing that i am expecting. yar something like that la. hahaha the experience was sure good. i had so much fun with the ppl! oh btw i trained the sec 1s. hahaha they are all normal acd students! hahah they were all so responsive to whatever i have to say. hahaha... i could see that some of them truly wants to be a sucess and they want to learn. there is this willingness i see in their eyes so pure... i pray that no evil shall come and steal their dreams away! amen.

after thw whole session i was so tired. i went straight home and sleep! hahaha when i woke up the next year and thought through the whole event, i realised i really enjoyed it. i enjoy that fufilling feeling u get after that. not just that.. and also the knowing that god is with lynn all that while and the students received becoz my jesus was present with me! i am excited. i am excited to know that at least 1 student know that he/she is a sucess and i am happy. just one and i'll be happy. just one person blessed and i am thankful. this job is just amazing to me. i think its the best job that has happened to me so far! praise jesus! daddy god i am so thankful. u really give just the best. for this season this is the best. in the future there will be another best u will give me. thank u lord. my future is in ur hands. i know it is already bless!

i am so happy so happy so joyful so joyful now. i don't really know why... i think it must be the joy of the lord in me. athought i've got a lot of mails to mail... a lot of reports to report a lot of things to do.... i am so happy still living and kicking. praise jesus! i am so thankful. i made up my mind already. as long as i have jesus i need not worry nor fear. as long as i have jesus i'll learn to cast all my cares to him and lean on his love for me. thats truly all i need. EXCITED!!!!

YEAH ... tmr i am going to office to meet my nr nice boss man... alex. favour favour!! thats all i will lean on...

2005-12-30T07:29:00.000-08:00

went out with chewy and shila today! yup is the threesome again! haha.. we exchanged pressies and walked ard and ard and ard... then we went zara.. hm... nothing is very nice left. we went cine to chill! i love chilling! is relaxing and fun and is an enjoyment! haha if only there is an occupation called the slackers pte. hahah... we all wish! but then again it would be a waste of time if life is just abt slacking!... there must be a deeper meaning to life.

had a great time with chewy n shila. really! it was awesome. miss those good old days and the silly things we do. examples of silly things include : a failure plan on climbing the gates
how to escape when i'm late?
how we bullied dion lee and some others.
my friends carried me out of the classroom and put me down on the rainy open space outside my class!!!
how we scolded this girl in school. hahaha
and lots more lots more!!! my fun times with my girlie!! haha

jesus loves me loves me loves me loves me! always and forever and ever and ever and ever and ever amen! thats quite a long time know. hahah it shall be a long good time right ATHRUN ZALA? HAHAHAHA...

life is just so full of the unexpected as much as u can expect. learn to love and learn to be thankful and life can be so beautiful. love the right one! not just a girl or a guy... but somethings are just above that. open our eyes and see.... and u will see much more! thank u jesus! u will teach me guide me and love me!